you said that i didn't love you
but do you remember about the old times
when we were just teenagers full of glory and desire
wanting to be on the top of the world?
i think that we were invencible
they all said we were the best couple
that we were made for each other
tut i guess that we never really knew ourselves
even tough i still can remember every single detail of you
//
you like your coffee hot with no sugar
we even joked about an arctic monkeys' lyric
if you like coffee hot let me be your coffee pot
we both love coffee
at least you did
tell me, julian, do you still love coffee?
because i do
//
i don't know what happened to us
we used to be so happy and full of life
now i'm just laying on my bed
thinking about life and old times
i miss them
and i also miss you
tell me, julian, do you miss me?
i think you don't
you're attached to that new girl
i met her once
she looked nice and gentle at first sigh
sut when she found out that we used to be lovers
she turned into somebody else
you don't look satisfied nor happy with her
but that's your life
and i must remember myself that i'm not part of it anymore
we're just strangers that used to be very close
you used to call me alex
just because everyone called me claire
and you like my middle name, alexander
i used to hate it, to think that was an stupid boy name
but it sounded so sweet in your voice
that i started to love it
but that's just past
and i should move on
exactly like you did
but i don't want it
//
arctic monkeys used to be our favourite band
we would always sing and dance it
i remember the day i showed them to you
you were tired and i didn't know what to do
you were working hard at schalke to become a famous footballer
and i just wanted to relax, school was killing me
then i put on the arctic monkeys' playlist while we were laying on the sofa
you liked crying lightning and asked me to show more songs
days later, i arrived at home and secretly saw you dancing to their songs
you probably don't know that
but everytime i get upset i remember about that
//
when we were together for about three years you gave a letter for me
it was the most significant present i've ever earned from you
you wrote about how my hair was messy when i woke up and you loved it
that you admired the way i cared about you
that we were the strongest couple
that we love each other more than everything
i don't know what made you stop loving and leave me
one day we were just one person
but in the other you were were moving away
and i didn't know what to do
you kept ignoring me
i tried to talk to you, but it seemed that you were deaf
why were you like that?
did anybody tell you something?
don't you love me anymore?
i miss you so hard that it hurts
and that's why i'm leaving
so then i can't feel broken anymore
and not think about you
//
do you know what is love?
love is caring, admire, enjoy somebody
love is a deep feeling, it can hurt and heal at the same time
so answer me
julian, do you still love me?
i hope you do
but i can't think clearly know
because i just took the pills
going to be free, trying to be healed
i'm at our apartment
on the floor, looking at the walls
i think the door is being opened
somebody is running
i take a deep breath, relieved that somebody is here
julian, is that you?
you look worried
julian, are you crying?
one of your hands is in my face while you're probably trying to call the emergency
you look so handsome
and i start to remember little details of you
julian, be a good boy
i love you
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hey!
i hope y'all like the story, it's simple but i loved and decided to post.
what do you think that happened in the final? i'm soooo sorry because i just didn't know how to finish ;;;
if there's any grammar error, let me know! ^^
bye <3
