Just a dream

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"You Can't Blame Gravity For Falling In Love" that's what Albert Einstein said it was kinda true, love something that hurt you so much but you want more of it kinda weird huh. it sometimes hurt seeing that she's happy without you she doesn't need you, just an illusion to her life a dream that has pass its hurts when you know she ignored your text for 5 hours and you will answer it in 5 seconds. your nothing to her you just a guy with high hope it kills you slowly every time siting with her, she does not say an ice of a sentence or a bit of word coming out her mouth. you  desperately looking for a hope looking for a way in but the only thing you got so far was a way out. You keep thinking about her being with her but you then wake up its just a dream. Looking at her still liking her ex boyfriend that threats her like shit and for her it was the best for her and you what to hurt her. She honestly just what to clear her chat so you don't bother her anymore. You treat her the best but for her you the worst because you can't do shit you can gift her a birthday present you can't get that a score on that math exam you can't do all of that, so what can you?. Deep inside you know you can't threat her better but that's just pure bullshit for her cause you can't do anything and you said to yourself. i am sorry I was just trying to make you happy. I just trying to be your friend. It hurts so much that the reality its just a dream. i am sorry i can't do all the thing that your ex can't do i Am sorry i don't make you fell save. i am sorry, I can treat you better I can make you happier because I would but you won't let me. i don't what to be your hero i don't need to be your best for you i just what you to listen to me i just what to take your time, i don't have to make you love me, i just what you to be happy because of who i am not what i have. I know i don't have a perfect body, I know I know but, i just wish you would accept me for who i was but you realized it was just a dream knowing that you will be with her you make an eye contact and it makes you day and you still think about her still choosing him over you get you back down to the ground deeper than all the gold that's buried. When you as her friend hey what did you do last night they answer cheating and calling with her but she said she was busy. Slowly you think she doesn't got time for people that love her only for the one that hurts her the one that have burned her heart, because the one who broke it will fix it again for sure, but deep inside her she knows that she can't move on she knows that she needs a fixer but she ignored that keeping it deep inside knowing that her ex, is better for her and can do all the stuff its really hurt you huh slowly she's starting to talk to her get a for more interaction but, no you can't you just keep hoping wondering is it true or not making it all the way there. You hope to confess your felling that moment when she said, i really like him and want to get back it hurts so much that you care so much. Slowly your drifting away you're starting to drown in your on tears and heart. You started thinking maybe it was the best for her, maybe it was the best for me. and at the end, you all remember that it was just a dream