Phil's POV
Dan thinks i've fallen asleep, but I really haven't. Whenever I pretend to go to bed, he does too, so it gives me time to write.
To Dan Howell,
I like the name Phan. it has a nice ring to it. ringing all the time.
sometimes I hear ringing in my head, but not like the nasty fire alarm ringing I heard only nights before I came here. the ringing in my head is more piercing. pierce pierce pierce. through my brain.
I think i've lost my mind. isn't that so sad? sad sad bad sad.
you seemed sad today.
I tried to ask you about it, but you didn't say anything. you got excited when I mouthed words though. words are bad.
why do you want to hear me talk? my voice is annoying, I hate the sound of it and i'm sure you would too.
I want you to stay with me all the time. stay stay, oh won't you stay?
I hope they'll allow you to do your work here. I miss you when you're away. away for the day.
sweet dreams Daniel.
-Phil Lester
1/26/13
I take this note and throw it far into the vent.
No one will ever find it there.
YOU ARE READING
deranged | phan
Fanfictioncompleted~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make...
