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  Tuesday
 3/15/16

  Today Ashley and I got into a stupid fight since she thinks I'm spending more attention to Bailey instead of her. I sort of started yelling and cussing but apologized right after...but that didn't work because she still stormed away looking more hurt than angry... I'm not much of a yeller so it must have really hurt her. I know I shouldn't have been so hostile but I just didn't get much sleep because I didn't eat dinner last night nor breakfast this morning.
   I was reading about it and I'm sticking to this diet I found on tumblr (I know, I'm such a stereotypical teenager) but honestly I already feel better. I fast for the first day and then I start my diet of 400 cals tomorrow, but It's a lot harder than I thought it would be. I'm already feeling light headed and have a headache. I really need to lose at least 10 pounds and then I'll stop, I just need to be fit enough to be able to actually participate in P.E without feeling like a whale. Maybe I'll even start to catch the attention of Bailey. I already have a test in science this Friday and a project for history due in two weeks. On top of all of that, my band director says that we have a show coming up in two weeks. I'm going to be really busy and I really hope I can work things out with Ashley. I already miss the fuck out of her and I just really need her.

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