Basically Dear Myself

Entry #1- 9/19/16

I feel a lot like a jellyfish. Swimming in my own little world. My sea is dark and cold, with many problems and troubles. Lately I've been acting even more like a jellyfish, and it's not actually me; but my body. Physical contact pisses me off, and I often space out and when I come back, I act depressed and like a whole new person. I often get lost in my thoughts and find myself thinking about things that aren't normal for average kids to think about.

I'm afraid that I'm not fully sane. I don't feel like it. It may seem I'm in my own perfect little world, but in reality, I feel like I could snap at any second. I truly am like a jellyfish, looking extravagant and beautiful until someone crosses the line and I snap, electrocuting them. Wrapping my cruel tentacles around them. Hurting them. Hurting the ones I love. I'm afraid someone might throw me into an asylum. I'm not insane. I can control my snaps. I'm not a threat as long as no one hugs me too tightly or pokes me.

Am I crazy? I think I could be. I think I might be...

I think I am.