I'm sorry that my presence has made your life harder
I'm sorry that four year old me has suddenly ruined your life just by existing
Is this what you wanted to hear when you decided you hated me? And a question I have, how does one go about hating they're baby sister? Is there some process? Well after long thought on the subject I think I've figured it out, so here's a guide to how to hate innocent people:
Get it into your head that it's all
Their fault. That everything that's ever happened wrong to you, is their fault and they deserve whatever you give them.
Tell yourself that your more important
That they can wait, you deserve it more, this can go from little things to big things, like asking for your mother to make you a poptart that you could have easily made at 16 but your 7 year old sister who's just been beaten up and needs a band aid and food because she's starving, can wait, to when your arguing with your other innocent sister and she tries to stop you because your making her older sister cry you look at her with all the hate you've felt for her over the years and you pick her up by her wrists and throw her into her room, banging her into every bookshelf and closet that now years later when she looks at the scrape in the paint on the wall all she can do is silently cry at the thought of you showing her just how worthless she really is, She can wait because you're so much more important then her, believe it so much and tell her everyday so that she starts to believe it to, eating becomes something she avoids because of your snide comments about "do you really want to eat that?" And tricking her into thinking she's a ugly worthless pig.
Make sure nobody else notices what your doing, so when she finally realizes that your a horrible selfish person, and she tells everyone how horrible you are and what you've done over the years no body believes her
But here's what you did wrong:
On Easter when you finally showed your true self to everyone. You yelled and screamed about me getting close to the present you brought, pretending I'm going to open it but you can't take a joke
"DONT YOU THINK"
"DONT YOU DARE THINK THAT THAT PRESENT WAS MEANT FOR YOU BITCH" and everyone realized
Except her because she already knew, she didn't cry, she didn't yell back at you like everyone else in the room did because she didn't need to hurt you anymore, because you had done it to yourself.
Congratulations you have ruined someone you loved's life, I hope it was worth your time
- A
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Stupid Little Poems And Lost Feelings
PoetryA poem book for the time being, this might be depressing or triggering so tread with caution!! It's mostly just about my feeling lost, and about my past and all the sad things that have happened to me, because what I did not realize is my love makes...
