UNWANTED ( Chresanto Love Story)

Part 70

Shaniia Pov

me and roc playing cat and mouse was only for a limited time. Roc end up moving out when he made enough money left and I became lonely. Corhan was a bore, i hated his boys always over, and he was playing games. I wanted more than just that. He hated when roc was here to come get melo because he thinks he's not really coming for him and he hates when I hang out with him and the dudes. And thats what I planned on doing. I put my hair up in a bun and walked passed the tv him and boys was play the game.

corahn: where you going?

me: why the fuck you worried

corahn looked at me in shock that i just talked to him that way

corahn: why am i consernd? he said repeating me

i turned around with an attitude and slammed my hand on my hip

me: yas nigga, why tha fuck are you concernd

corahn: because you ma bitch and im making sure you aint fucking no nigga

Me: nigga fuck yo broke, cheap, gay ass mutha fucka

he walked up to me and hit me hard. I was in shock. I got up and spit in his face and got melo from upstairs and we start walking out the house and corahn start calling my name. I got to the car and strapped melo in his car seat and kissed him and went on my way to roc's house

I was hoping roc wasnt going to see the huge red spot on my face. I was happy to have a reason to come and see him. hopefully I could be free from all the stress and be okay. It didnt take me long to get to his house. I grabbed melo's carseat walked up to rocs door and rang the doorbell, i wished he would take melo out my hand and kiss me and hold me and make my problems go away. But I was wrong, seeing her face made me wanna break down and cry. It was Jordan answering the door with a robe on

Jordan: may I help you?

me: where's chres

she put a evil grin on as she looked at me then at at melo on the carseat

jordan: Oh, he's in the shower, cleaning himself if you wanna just leave the baby and you can go than-

roc: Aye jay, who's at door?

jordan: Uhm baby and baby mama

roc: aye shaniia, ray and the boys in the back, you and melo go back the with them untill I come, coo ma?

me: gotchu babe, i said then looke at jordan

roc: coo

she was confused to why he answer to me calling him babe. and i smiled.
and i looked at melo in his carseat

me: how about we go see your uncles huh?!

i started to walk to the back of the housr untill i stopped

me: and jordan, not just the baby mama but also an ex wife, so that means when you were being just a quick nut, I was at home being a comentemt and its thots like you thats unhappy so you feel you gotta do something about right?

then i walked away on that note leaving he mouth opened. I walked into the room and i saw ray, prince and prod

me: hey guise

prince: hey

ray: whats good

prod: sup sis

i came to see with them and start feeding melo

me: so why tf is jordan here yo?

prod: arent you aware that there dating

me: wow, now fu-

I covered melo's ears

me: them fuckin, thats what I was aware of, not him makin this bitch wifey and shit tha fuck?

prince glanced at me and popped a cheeto in his mouth

prince: are you jealous?

me: what the fuck I look like being jealous? im the one who ended this shit so kill it

I looked at melo who was asleep and i kissed his cheek and put him in his seat. I sat and hanged with the guys for a while untill i saw roc in the door way and I looked at him and smiled and he smiled back.

me: Hey

roc: hey, is he sleep? he said pointing at melo

me; yeah he is

roc: come on we can put him the crib

me: okay

I picked up melo's seat and started to walk pass roc untill he took melo's seat from me and I followed him upstairs. We went into melo room and roc put him in the crib.

roc: He has that fat ass nose of yours

me: and he got that big ass water balloon head of yours

we both laughed

me: soo, you and jordan , its the real deal huh

roc scratched the back of his neck

roc: uhm, yeah, were dating now

me: you know its funny, she went from the girl you used to cheat on me with to your wifey type, I never thought I would lose to her

Ro was biting the inside of his mouth and I knew that he was mad then he leaned up against the wall

Roc: Nah you know whats funny, I told you to promise me that you
wont leave and you wont stop loving but you fogot about me and you went start fucking some other nigga, I loved you with my heart....... scratch that I loved you with my soul and beyond. I thought if you left me I would forget how to live, But guess what I remembered how

I was filled with anger and shock that I just wanted to find me somewhere to die. How could this time around it was me that fucked up and I had no one to blame

me: you know what, I dont wanna argue, ima just leave

I started to walk out the room untill he grabbed my arm and pinned me to the wall.

Roc: No, your gonna sit here and your gonna accept the fucking truth you-

but he stopped and took a glance at my face. this was about to raise hell. He looked at the red spot on my medium skin and notice for red it was. he tried to touch it gently but when he tried to touch it soflty it ached, it filled my body with pain and agony.

Roc: he did this to you? he asked softlyI knew if I told him what happend it would raise hell. I didnt do anything but slide down the wall and cry as he stood over me

Roc: he did this?

I nodded my head and I started to cry even more.Roc crouched down infront of me and moved my hands from my face. My eyes were red and half swollen. I felt ashamed. I cause all what happend to us. I hadnt left that day with the kids we would still be married, be a family, and still loving each other.

Roc: babygirl whats wrong, this aint like you, the girl I know would never let another nigga hit nor hurt her, just tell me whats wrong

" Im sorry", i cried to him," I-I dont know whats wrong.I cant take it. Im not happy anymore, roc im loosing slowly.The only joy i have is melo." trying to tell him what was wrong was so hard i started to break down even more

" Im sorry, im so sorry, im so so sorry roc I- I didnt mean to come in you life and fuck everything up.😩😩😩 I didnt mean too. Im sorry I broke your promises." my face collasped into my knees. Roc pulled my face up and held with his hands and whiped my tears with his thumbs. He looked into my eyes and and I saw that me cared even though he didnt want to. He brang his face to mine and kissed my lips solfty and gently as if he wasnt trying to break me.

"Dont think like that ma, because every wrong you, something happend to correct it. When you left, you got pregnant with my son. When you left with the kids, you taught
me not to take things for granted." he said

"So basically, you dont want me anymore?" i said with the driness iny throat

"Baby, we just need some time away from each other, thats what im saying" he said reaching his hand out for me but I refused

"No, im tired, im not the same anymore, im not okay." I said looking him in the eye hoping he saw the hurt in my eyes and the pain in my tears that dropped apon my face

" I'll be okay, I'll figure it out on my own like I always do right?" i asked

" shan-" he tried to push out of his thick lips but was cut off by me

" Aye, imma need you to just keep melo untill, you know Im okay, and thats prolly gonna be longer than usaually like for a month or so, just do this for me please" i asked sincerly

"yeah, yeah anything" he said confused. I couldnt leave him like that.I kissed his cheek softly, knowing this would be the last time I would be able to do this. He grabbed both of my hands and intwined them and kissed my lips. I looked at him and i began to feel with regret.I gave him a crooked smile and stormed out and went into my car and started it up. I put my head o the wheel ans cried into it. How could i mess my life up like this? What is left to turn to now?

Its been 3 weeks since I saw melo and roc. I miss melo nnd casey, Casey got a gifted scholarship to a school in Florida and I havent seen her in so long. I wanted to go over roc's house to see melo and that was all. I just wanted to hold him, feed him and read to him then put him to bed.I went over there and everyone was outside when I pulled up. I got out the car and greeted everyone. When I said hi to roc, Jordan kissed him. I seen melo and he put his hands out and said " up mommy" to me and I picked him up. We all sat outside and shared laughs. We was talking about how prince fight weird

"I mean hey, he whoops ass, so thats all that matters, I guess" I said chuckling

"Better than not being able to right, shaniia?" jordan said as if she was calling me out

" bitch, what chu tryna say?"I spat at her

"Hey, im just sayin, You knew that we went to the same high school and how you got got cho ass whoop almost every day" he said slick

I kissed melo cheek and handed him back to roc, walked off the porch, and put my hair in a bun.

" Bitch you done test the waters, wanna talk about me getting my ass kicked, Come down here so you can get yours cause bitch you been talking mad shit and I aint liking it hoe" I said to her

She walked off the porch and square up.

" You aint gone stop this shit?" prince asked tox

"Hell naw, this bout to be some funny shit" he said chuckling

began to fight. She tried to grab my hair but I punched her in the nose causing to fall. I got on top off her and start sending shots to her face. She start tapping out but I was forcing er face into the ground and then let go and spat at her.

"Who whooping ass now hoe?" I said opening up my arms.

Everyone was laughing but her. I saw a black truck down the street pulling up slow and roc saw it too. They got close to the house and rowed the windows down. me and chres looked at each other

"GET DOWN!" me and roc said at the same time.

The bullets was flying in every direction. Then they sped off. I got up from the ground to see that ray, prince, and prod had they guns out and roc was in the chair holding melo and his arm. I ran up to roc

"Are you okay?" I asked concernedly while scrutinizing him

"I need to Go the the hospital, They got me" he said in pain

I almost lost it when I saw melo. He was hit, shot, my only babyboy. I scream and grabbed melo and start crying and everyone was rushing to the car, roc was pushing me slowly to the car.

" Niia, come on, we gotta get him there before its to late" he said slowly taking me to the car

"Shaniia lets fuckin go" Prod yelled out the window

I got In the truck and was rocking him and putting pressure on his woumb.Lord knows if I loose Romelo I wont know what to do.We all hoped out the car as doctors came out with gerneys. Jordan helped roc on one of them and I put melo on the other one and they start pushing them in. I was focusing on melo but jordan and roc kept catching my eye. It came to the point we couldnt go in with either on of them and we had to sit and wait. I slammed myself into my seat, crossed my arms, and cried. I was angry and sad all at the same time. Prince looked at me and couldnt take my crying and came and sat me on his lap, as me craddled me and held me like a baby, then I felt a sense warmth and clearness in his arms. I sat there calmly as he rocked me. I seen roc come out the door, I stood up to walk over to him and hug him but, jordan beat me ans left me standing there stupid. I saw if it was okay if I could sit back in prince's lap and he said it was. I looked over and roc holding jordan. I tried not to pay attention then a docter came out and called for the parents of Romelo August. Me and roc stood up and walked over to him

" So good or bad news first?" the doctor asked

"Bad" me and roc stated

"Well, he's on life support, and its a 50/50 chance that he can make it out of this, or he could die, and its gonna cost" the doctor said

"So whats the good news?" I questioned

"We had to do sugery on him to remove the bullet and he did well"
the doctor said

"Is there anway he can see him?" roc asked

" room 236" he stated

Me and roc walked side to side then opened the room door. I covered my mouth with my hand to see my one year old baby hooked up to multiple IV's and a tube in his mouth.I almost fell untill roc caught me and held me

"Dont do that here ma, keep your composure" he said into my ear, " come on" he said as he guided me out of the room.

He tool me outside and put me in the car.The drive was smooth. I requested that I hear Echoes of Silence by The Weeknd. I curled up in the small seat and layed my head on the door.Is this what I deserve?Was it because I pushed everyone out to be on my own?I just wanna be happy again.

"Did you hear me?" roc questioned as we sat outside of the house I once shared with the man I might still love.

"Wha- no, I didnt hear, what did you say?" I said with the dryness in my throat

" I said that we can split melo's hospital bill in half so it can be easier to pay, is that coo?" he asked

"Yeah, yeah its cool" I said

He layed back in the seat and sighed and he brought my head on his chest and I planted it there with my hand and I wanted to stay there. I felt at home, like this is where I need to be.

"He'll be okay, I know he will just wait on it" he said for words of comfort.

I nodded my head and remained there.

"okay, its getting late, you should be going in and getting you some rest" he told me

Did he not feel the same for me? Didnt he still love me?I thought of breaking down and crying my heart out to him, telling him how much I miss him and need and what I did to him was wrong and that when I told him this he would tell me the same and we would be back together, But I snapped back into reality and knew I doesnt work that way. Didnt he see I was hurt? Why didnt he want me to stay awhile. Didnt he see it was something wrong the way he looked into my eyes. I felt my self open the car door and got out and walked towards the house. I opened the door to see corahn on the couch

"Babe, where you been?" He asked

I didnt answer but mopped upstairs into my room. I shut the door ans scream. I was overwelmed and stressed, I started to throw things untill they broke. It was enough glass on the floor for me to stop and I sat there. I was crying. Why was I so selfish? I pushed him away and it was my fault, no one else to blame. I looked over to the dresser. I knew I couldnt promise myself it was only going to be one time, long as I was depressed, I knew it would happen more than once.I felt the dresser calling my name, and it keeps calling. I got up and walked up to it, went into my underwear drawer and pulled out the baggie with powder inside. I poured a little on the dresser and put it in 3 lines and got a dollar abd rolled it up. I slowly put the dollar up to my nose then to the white lines and sniffed all three. I sneezed a little as it entered my nose and whipped the powder of the edge on my nose.I looked at myself in the mirrior, I sae my beauty that was once admired, slowly start to fade away. Was this really the only way to deal.