Lost and Naive (Chris Brown Fanfic)

Chapter 1

Emilia's POV

Eyes still glued shut, I thank God for blessing me to be alive another day. Opening my eyes I huff feeling the heaviness of my eyelids and drop them back shut, moving my hair out of my face, I throw my legs over the side of my red cherry oak wooden queen-sized bed and sit up slumped over. Letting out a deep sigh I open my eyes once again this time slightly struggling to keep them open while squinting as the sunlight beamed through my shades. Placing my feet on the polished wooded floor I groggily pulls myself out of bed and stretch my body as I walk out the room, kicking and shoving toys out of my way heading to the bathroom. "Damn children", I thought to myself. Twisting the doorknob I quickly open and shut it back

"You could've said something before I opened the door completely ya know Mila!", I yell at my 18 year old sister through the bathroom door

"When the door is closed you're supposed to knock puta!", she shouts back

"Ay dios mio," I exclaim as I mentally curse her out

When she came out the bathroom, I was immediately in awe. Milan was absolutely gorgeous and I wanted to be like her when I got older. Milan was about 5 foot 1, practically short, she had a fair complexion, no bumps, no bruises, no acne. Her skin was perfect like a caramel latte, very rich and smooth.

"You can stop staring now chica, I'm not all that." She says walking past me and pulling me with her

"How could I do something like that ? I swear you're perfect, I want to be like you." I state as I follow behind her

"Tuh.. Me ? Perfect ? I'm far from perfect Lia, very far. If I'm so perfect why is it that I have so many fears ? Why am I afraid of this world we live in ?" she questions sitting in her vanity chair

"Afraid of the world ? I don't see how that's possible Mila, you're out there way too much it be afraid of it." I reply with slight sarcasm in my tone

Rolling her eyes at me she stands up in front of the dresser looking at herself in the mirror.

"Oh Lia.. Your naïveté is going to be the death of me! How could I put this ?" she's sighs and begins speaking hesitantly

"The world.. It changes people. The world looks all fun and games but when you actually experience it on your own, you understand that's it's not a joke, and it most definitely isn't the fun and games it's made out to be."

Rolling my eyes at her I just listen.. Partially as she speaks. I was in my head and I tuned her out and anybody else who was speaking when I got to thinking. Her lips were moving but I didn't hear a word coming out of her mouth as I continue to "listen", I ponder my thoughts from the world not being a joke to practically doubting almost every word she said. If she was so afraid of the world why did she still deal with it ? Why did she still want part in any of it ? Blinking back into focus I saw Milan grilling me to death and didn't understand why until I thought back to the statements I believed I'd asked myself just a few seconds ago..

"I said that out loud didn't i.." I stated more than questioned

Nodding her head she picked up her tube of mascara and began applying it to her thick long lashes, shaking her head she sighs deeply and glances at me for a quick second before retorting

"You're gonna learn the hard way Lia. You will. You're doubtfulness and naïveté is going to lead you down that path.. It's gonna be your downfall, and I'm not saying this to seem mean or rude to you but believe me when i tell you, I had to learn the hard way too because I chose to be fast and not listen to Mami when she was warning me constantly."

I was lost on what she meant by she had to learn the hard way.. What was the "hard way" ? It took every muscle in my body to not reply to her like the smart ass I was, so instead I just turn and walk out of her room, leaving Milan to her pretty self and makeup.