so this morning me twist and well combat are having it out...it reminds me of my dream last night..i keep having nightmares of combat breaking up with me and going with blue...it breaks my heart every time i see it... I wake up thinking its true....I cry on a daily basis knowing its going to become true one day...kombat telling me in my dream I'm useless and that she was better off with blue....she told me i was useless,stupid,retarded,a faggott...a waste of space...that i was better off dead...when twist told me this morning that her and issy had it it made me cry on the bus...knowing that blue is still around in kombats life hurts me badly...it makes me think that there is still a chance my nightmare will come true...and once combat was away blue told me i was better off in a hole with no one to help...that i don't deserve friends...that i deserve to be alone....and well it makes me second guess my life....heh i guess i will shut up now...bye...
~worthless nothing
