A Song For Melody

Chapter 1

"Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel. Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain,"

The energy raced through as I bounced from one thing to another. My bed, to what Mum always called 'the reading chair,' to the floor. I was everywhere, nothing could stop the adrenaline pumping through my veins, especially right now.

"MELODY, CALM DOWN!" Well except maybe one person. My wild ravings were put to an instant stop as I faced them.

"Never in my wildest dreams did I ever dream of this," I smile goofily, not really focusing on them, still in my daze.

Charlie heads to my blue player on my dresser, turning down the music before asking, "Okay, what happened?"

"He asked me out," I say still in my dreamy state.

Charlie grabs my shoulders, shaking them slightly, "He asked you out?"

"Yes," I say slightly annoyed, removing his hands from my shoulder.

"How and when?" He says as we sit down on my unmade bed.

"Today, lunchtime. He kinda looked," I think for a moment, "nervous, I guess you could say. Like he had trouble coming up to me." I shrug my shoulders, "It was nothing special really, he stumbled just to get the words out but he said them, he did say them. I even had Kayla pinch me afterwards."

"And?"

"What?"

"What did you say?"

"I didn't say yes. But I didn't say no," I add the last part.

"So what stopped you? I mean you've been going on about this guy ever since year nine."

"I don't know," I look down thinking, "The words just wouldn't come out. I'm just not sure about it yet. He would be my first boyfriend and I don't know, I still have a lot to figure out in the department of love. Like just in general, what is love? Do you feel love with more than one person? I mean how do you know when you love someone? Like will you just know? Or is love just mean you're together with someone. Does love even still exist? Is love just an old fashioned thing, like our parents, that will never come back? Or... I don't know, just what is love?" I say flopping down on my bed.

Charlie lowers himself down next to me with a smile, "Love is love, only you can really know what it is. It'll be different for different people. Some say it's instant, some say it's not. You just gotta figure it out on your own."

"You sound like you're such an expert, you haven't even had a girlfriend or anything."

"Maybe, I don't need a girlfriend to know. I mean not all love is romantic."

I look up to the ceiling, "Charlie, what should I do?"

"If it were my choice, as your twin, I would just say no, you're not sure about love yet. But at the end of the day, it is always completely, 100% your choice and I'm not going to tell you what to do." Charlie gets up and starts to leave.

"But--" I say getting up.

"You gotta start making your own decisions Melody." I give out a sighing grunt, flopping back on my bed. Placing an arm over my face I once again take in the music. "Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me. Because of you...I am afraid," eventually falling asleep.