My Own Love Story- Kylee Odom

The Beginning of A Beautiful Journey

     It was the fourth of July, my best friend at the time Kelvin was over because I had moved from my old school and didn't have anyone else to really hang out with so he came over and kept me company. The night was spent laughing, shooting fireworks, and typical teenage gossip followed by giggles. Kelvin is gay, he helped me feel so comfortable with my own sexuality because he just seemed to comfortable in his (as a side note if you didn't read the description I' bisexual). After the roman candle wars, and the throwing of gunpowder poppers we sat out on my porch and had deep conversations as we often did. Then, he started dragging on and on about this guy he met online. They met over the "Whisper" app, and from the way Kelvin described him, he was pretty much perfect for him! He was good-looking, sweet, musically inclined, intelligent, and best of all he seemingly adored my friend and Kelvin seemed so happy, which made me happy. The next day, Kelvin went home, and I was at home pretty much alone. None of my siblings lived with me at the time, and I was freshly 15 years old so I couldn't drive to go see my friends at other schools in other towns. Therefore, I was pretty lonely most of the time.

      My loneliness resulted in a deep depression, with some scary thoughts, on some scary nights, which lead to some scary actions that I still have to deal with. My anxiety and depression was in full swing, and everyone was worried. I had to do something about this loneliness, or at least find something to mask the thoughts and feelings I was having. I started trying to distract myself with playing piano but it just didn't work, I needed someone to talk to (someone who wasn't my mom that is). Then I remembered Kelvin's experience with his online love interest he met on the Whisper app.

      I downloaded the app, not really looking for a love interest particularly, but maybe just a friend other than Kelvin. I made my first post:

"15/ bi/ lonely"

    I know it sounds desperate, but, hey, desperate people do desperate things!

      I almost instantly got so many replies! Although most of them where just nudes from horny lesbians and I just wasn't looking for a sexting partner! Then I got a message from someone who actually seemed to want to talk to me, I don't remember exactly what she said but this girl just sounded genuinely sorry and concerned for my loneliness and actually carried a conversation with me! I remember exactly what I was doing during our first conversation. I was cooking soy chicken, rice, and egg noodle soup and she had just gotten home from the grocery store with her mom. She told me about how she had just moved to a new place too, and how nervous she was about school, which was starting very soon. We talked all night and I was already enchanted by her vocabulary and sweet, caring personality. She had already made me laugh within the first hour of conversing, because she had hit her head on the trunk door of her mom's car when trying to unload groceries (when typing that it's not very funny, but in the moment and the way she described it made me giggle).  I was just so intrigued by this beautiful human that was speaking to me, she seemed nice but I didn't know if she was even into girls so I just was vert straight forward and asked her how she identified her sexuality. 

    She told me she was a lesbian, and we exchanged photos and she was absolutely stunning! Her honey-brown eyes, her flawless caramel-colored skin, and her charismatic, white smile seemed to be everything I wanted to get lost in. Honestly, I didn't know why I was so infatuated with her, but I was! She was so perfect and we spoke on the phone and texted non-stop for weeks upon weeks and she already meant the world to me.