The pain is just way to much to take. I try to keep myself busy but its just way to taunting. why me? Why cant i be normal? Why do i put so much stress on so many others? Why God? screaming pointlessly I can't take much more. How much longer do you keep it all in besides we've tried for several years and once again i failed him how do i tell him that I cant be the mother to his children. Fumbling across the dining room floor down the hallway to the garage to try to explain everything to my excited husband. As we walk up the stares to walk into our house the pregnancy test fell out and so did my emotions. After picking up the turned over test peyton looks at me and i saw the hurt that filled his eyes . I'm so sorry. I watch as a tear rolls down the cheek of the one i love so much its all my fault i said im sorry my body is made like this and that ive failed you again. He walked off with disappointment. Later that night while eating dinner there was a complete silence until an ad about adoption come on the T.V about choosing adoption as a plan for starting a family. After hearing the ad about adoption my mind is running wild from hoping to go right thru this. I didn't say anything to peyton about the adoption but later on that night I went to research in my office. Going into the site seeing all the poor babies just waiting to be adopted by a loving family just made me grow closer to adoption. As i continue to broze the site more and begin to read about a lady that is willing to have a baby for someone that can't have children i immediately read on. This is definitely a step i would take to start my family.
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General FictionJaycee and Peyton have tried for years to have a baby but have seemed to fail every time. Until the chance of a life time touches their finger tips. It was truly a dream come true!
