Little Thoughts

•heartbroken•

To myself a year ago:

Heartbreak is something that every person will go through in their course of life. When your heart breaks, you will feel so much of unfathomable pain that you will just want to give up on life. And you will cry. You will cry so damn much from all the sadness and pain that has engulfed you. You will feel so damn pathetic but you have to rememeber that crying does not make you pathetic.

You are crying because you loved and cared so much about that person, and its perfectly alright to cry. You are a human and you have feelings. You have the right to cry out loud and be miserable.

Don't ever shun yourself away from crying out and feeling all the pain. The more you run away frm the pain, the more you keep your emotions stored in a bottle, the worse it gets and it will all blow up one day and you will feel 1000 times more horrible. The point to existence is to feel all your emotions and be alive. You have to be sad and break down and cry. You have to learn to be at your ultimate worst to learn to be happy. After all, how could you know on how to be happy if you have never felt sadness.

But it has to stop. One day or another, your crying has to stop. Your life is yours and crying and wasting your life away for someone who won't come back to you, is utterly stupid. I know that it hurts to think of a future where that person is not involved. It will hurt so damn much but you have to hang on. You have to stay anchored and not drift away.

Every morning when you get up, it will be a challenge. But you just have to force yourself to get up; to put one foot after the other. It will be so damn hard. You will cry again and you will feel so lost, but you have to refuse to let it get to you.

When you feel it all crashing down again, just breathe. Remember that the pain you are feeling will pass one day. Maybe not now or tomorrow, but one day it will. Just like how everything passes. Don't give up on life and just hang on. Always remember, that even your worst days only have 24 hours. The hurt will fade as time goes on and you will heal.

As time goes on, you have to learn to let it all go. All the memories and all the experiences that you had with tht person, you gotta let it all go. All that happened are part of your past chapter, not the present anymore.

With each passing day, you become a new person. You become stronger, wiser and much more happier. With each passing day, you have to learn to select what thoughts you want to think just like how you select what food you want to eat or what clothes you wish to wear. You have to learn to cultivate your mind, so as to have power over your life and not let your emotions rule over it.

As time goes on, I assure you everything will hurt less and life will be better. But just take note that you are not running away from love every again. Let youself feel the emotions. Giving up on love just because you have been heartbroken before, is like as if someone giving up on oxygen just becayse they had a few asthma attacks. Always trust yourself. You have survived a lot and you will survive whatever that is coming in your way.

After all, remember that you are wounded not broken. If a flower can teach itself to bloom after the winter passes, so can you.