Pending | J.jk

unattractive

mae

,,alright, tell me about yourself choi mae." he pronounced each syllable of my name slowly as he crossed his arms over his chest; as if he was trying to get a taste of the words, letting it fall against his tongue and soak in the flavors.

i shrugged and took a sip of my macchiato he so graciously got for me. ,,what'dya wanna know?"

he placed his index finger against his chin playfully as he thought of things to ask me. ,,you seem very mysterious and dark. it intrigues me to get to know you more," i nodded and awaited for what else he had to say. ,,do you read books?" i chuckled. there's definitely something mysterious about a teenage girl who's into great bands that reads equally as great books in her free time.

,,yeah, actually i do." i stared at him and his goofy grin, practically yelling at me to continue on. i sighed and folded my hands together. "my favorite book is called 'utopia' by sir thomas more. in the book he basically speaks of things that most wouldn't dare talk about in their novels. i find it fascinating because it's an original, a one of a kind if you may. it deals with 'nothing will be as perfect as most make out to be.' though, your heart thrives off of conspiracies of a place being unflawed, there's no such thing in our world that is built off of imperfection."

i looked up at jungkook in realization, hating myself for getting worked up and happy to explain to someone about the book i've read over five times already.

i don't know what i was expecting, of course he's gonna get bored and try to distract himself as i throw my heart and affection out into elaborating the affect that book had on me. but, it surprised me when i saw him fully aware, staring right at me with my weird gestures in the air. ,,therefor, one...can only comment on it being of a 'utopia..'" i quickly trailed off.

i grew flustered under his stupid gaze that he had set on me, hoping that he would stop staring at me or i'd have to punch him.

,,how unattractive."

i looked up at him upon hearing those words. again, he was staring at me with an annoying grin on his face. ,,i find that attractive." i twisted my face in confusion as i stared at the ravenet named jungkook who sat lazily in front of me. his eyes were cloudy as his eye smile seemed to be filled with honey suckle and other sweet addicting things. ,,now, tell me about those emo bands of yours." i frowned at his choice of words. 100% sure i wanted to uppercut that douchey crooked smile he planted on his lip*

,,emo?" i angrily voiced, louder than i had expected, gaining the attention of the cafe ladies who worked in the small area.

jungkook held up his index finger. he took his other hand and started digging through one of his pockets. he mouthed an 'aha' when successfully finding whatever he had in there. he took it out and placed it in his hand, strutting it toward me.

i looked down at his palm, raising my eyebrow when i saw a snickers bar. he wiggled it around more, wanting me to take ahold of it. i grunted and snatched the candy out of his hand.

he smiled triumphantly and slouched back down in the chair he was sitting in. ,,you're not you when you're hungry."

i squeezed the chocolate in my hand as i glared at him, the sugary ingredients in the bar melting.

he started to laugh at me, which made me more confused and angry than i already was. ,,okay, i'm sorry. it's just, i love your facial expressions: 10/10."
i rolled my eyes to try to suppress the smile that was forcibly trying to appear on my face. he noticed my inner struggle and laughed even harder. ,,you're truly fascinating, choi mae."

i grinned cheekily at his words as he stared at me. i shook my head and mimicked his smile. ,,and you, jeon jungkook, are truly riveting to talk to." he chuckled and nodded, placing his head in his palm as he studied me. ,,so, what is an eighteen year old cocky teenager doing at a hospital like this?"

he arched an eyebrow as a smirk played at his lips. ,,i have stage three thyroid cancer."

my eyes widened ever so slightly after hearing him.
,,i-i'm so sorry." i sympathetically said, looking up at him as he stood. he shrugged and paced back and forth as he stared out the window.

,,it seems like that's all i get nowadays, pity and apologies. but to be honest, i'll just keep smiling and shrugging, 'cause i'm totally happy, mae."

i stared at him as he explained to me his feelings. i was mentally scoffing at his attitude. of course he's not happy.

,,jungkook." he stopped with his hand motions and looked back at me, waiting for my response.

,,happiness is just an illusion caused by the temporary absence of reality." he stared at me in bewilderment. i noticed his eyes dilating at a quick rate. ,,so...what i mean is, you think you're fine and dandy, but in reality, you're really not."

his adam's apple rised and then slowly fell. he placed his hands down and turned his body toward me.

he chuckled and smiled ,,well i suppose you're right, choi mae. i am not fully nor truly happy."