True Love

Time

Flashback to 4 years ago ...

What happened to us. It's as if nothing ever existed between us. What did I ever do to make you give up on me. Was I not enough? We almost had it. You were almost mine and I yours officially, but you just had to give didn't you? I just needed a little more time, babe. Just little more time...

These are the thoughts running through my head as I shed endless tears to heal my broken-heart. I loved him. I love him. And I thought he loved me too, but I guess I was wrong. I shouldn't have trusted and fell in love so easily- "ang tanga tanga mo Sarah, ang tanga tanga mo," I told myself as tears continue to shed down my cheeks.

I'm sorry babe but I have to do this. I need time to figure everything out. Time apart will dictate our story, but time apart will also break my heart for not being with you kills my living soul. Don't ever think I never loved you, because I did. I loved you very much. I love you very much. Please understand, letting you go is for the best. I won't let you love an in-complete man. It's not fair for me and especially for you. Please take care. Time will decide what's best for us...

God knows how much I wanted to tell her these exact thoughts in person, but it wont be possible without me breaking down right in front of her. So I didn't. I couldn't let her see me all broken and torn, that wasn't the man who deserves to love her. "Ang hina-hina mo Gerald. Ang tanga-tanga mo," I told myself as I cry lying down on my bed.

I know she's hurting, she did not have to tell me for me to notice. I see it in her eyes. She's probably the most transparent person in the world. I can see right through her ​​and I do not know why. But what I do know is that I'm affected. She affects me in ways others cannot. Hell, even her pain is causing my heart to break. I do not know what it is but I just want to hold her close and be there to comfort her. I want all her pain to go away, I want her smile to return- a smile that reaches up to her eyes like it used to... I just want her happy . I want Sarah happy.

"Matteo stop fooling yourself and just focus on the damn song in front of you. I'ts only rehearsals and you're already distracted. You do not want to look like a fool while on stage with the woman of your dreams," I said to myself as I continually catch small glimpse of her singing so beautifully.