Broken

Meeting paul. My real dad.

We were off to meet Paul.
I was trying to lighten my mood by going through my birthday messages from my friends.

We had a 3 hour drive to reach Paul's house.
On the way we had a couple of stops, I shot some good instagrams.

Half way through the journey Amanda and I fell asleep and when we woke up, we were in this driveway with 4 screaming, running around children. Ion sure the house is one of the most incredible houses I'd ever seen. It was a modern house with a huge backyard and a pool.

A man who was quite well dressed with piercing green eyes and a stubble approached us, if only I knew it was Paul.
It'd been 14 years since I'd seen him, I couldn't remember his face.
Happy birthday Ashley & Amanda he said pulling us into a hug.

Things got slightly awkward and my eyes get drawn to a beautiful looking woman, I suppose that's his wife.

Hi Georgia, I'm Amy she said, Paul's wife.
Hi Amy, nice to meet you.
Come in any said.
On the way in all the four kids were staring at the three of us.

The house was much more beautiful on the inside.
We sat in their patio, downstairs.
Amy went to get is something for us to nibble on.
Meanwhile, Paul made us arrangements to sit.
Before anyone could get comfortable Amanda asked Paul why he left us quite arrogantly.

Paul: I'm sorry, Georgia.
Im sorry abandoned you after everything id promised.
I'm sorry for not being the father figure girls.
I'm sorry Georgia was the one who waited home  when you got back from school.
I'm sorry if you got teased in school for not having a dad.
I'm sorry if you've had sleepless nights thinking about where I was.
I'm sorry it was only three plates when you say for dinner.
I'm sorry if you woke up on Christmas and there were only three stalkings.
I'm sorry for not being there, when you needed me to teach you how to ride a bike.
I'm sorry for not being there.
I just wasn't happy with my life then.

Mum: what weren't you happy with Paul?
You had everything

*before mum could finish Paul interrupted*
..I had everything but a perfect life.

At this point both Amanda and I were furious.
Amanda just couldn't hold it in anymore.

Amanda: I know you aren't sorry for us.
Or Else you would've stayed.
You weren't there to tuck me and ash in bed, you weren't there there when mum was crying her eyes out and we didn't know what to do, every time we had a show at school we always found mum but never you, you were the reason mum came home drunk every night and crashed on the bed, you were the reason mum got her heart broken again.

At this point, everyone was in tears, even Amy.