"Ano ba kief! Ako na lang ba lagi ang mag aadjust? Kief, ang sakit sakit na. Palagi nalang akong 2nd option mo. Kief if you love her then let me go. Let me do what I want in my life kahit Na masakit. Kahit Na alam Kong ikaw lang. Alam ko naman kasing hanggang second lang ako pero sabi mo mahal mo ko, I waited. I expected pero Hindi dumating ang time na mapapatunayan ko sa lahat how I love you! Sana Hindi mo nalang ako pinaasa. Masakit"
What can I do? Cry. Ano pa ba? Dito naman ako parati babagsak. Iiyak nalang palagi.
Tago ako bilang Girlfriend niya. Why? Kasi his parents wanted him to get her. Ako? I'm just a commoner. Hindi naman kasi kami mayaman. Siya kasi tagapagmana. Kailan ba ako magiging para sa kanya? I'm just nothing compared to mikaela.
"Babe naman, ikaw ang mahal ko! Kahit kailan Hindi ko siya minahal. Alam natin tatlo yun! You're not my second option, never did I imagined you being my second. Alam Na alam mong ikaw ang 1st priority ko" sabi niya while getting my hands
Talaga ba? Bakit parang hindi naman.
"Alam nating dalawa kung ano ang totoo. I know you know more than anyone! Just please kief. Let me go. Mahal na mahal kita pero Tao din akong nasasaktan. Nabibiyak. "
Ayoko na eh. Tagong tago ako sa lahat. I need to end this pain, kung hindi, I might end up shattered forever.
"Babe, please. Mahal Na mahal kita"
Now what? He's crying while kissing my hands. Mahal din naman kita babe, but this pain is unbearable. I will let you go for your family to be happy. Masasaktan kita but I will just think na lahat ng ito ginagawa ko dahil mahal na mahal kita.
"It isn't enough kief. I'm sorry but I think we need a break"
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That's how our story ended. Masakit parin until now, you know love can damage too much. 4 effin years but still, heto ako, still single and still loving him. Pero siguro we're not meant to be together kaya ganon.
Who will settle to be the second option ba? No one.
Den: earth to alyssa?! Hoy gaga kanina pako dada ng dada dito. You're not listening!
Ly: Im listening besh
Ella: kami pa niloko mo
Ganun ba ako kahalata?
Den: ly, matagal na yun. Ilang taon na. Mahal mo parin ba siya?
Eto yung perks kung meron kang bestfriends. You don't need to say a single word just to tell them what you feel or what's bothering you.
Den: mahal mo pa nga. Hay. If only we could do things that can made that love run away from you.
That's when I started crying.
Masakit padin pala talaga. You can't have the man you love All the time of your life.
They say, First love never dies, naniniwala Na ko. I love him since the day I know that love do exist in this world full of sadness. Last love will last forever, at mukhang maniniwala nadin ako dito. How can I make this man out of my system? Hindi na din ata.
Ly: I don't know what to do either. Maybe this is how love travels in my life. *sobs* maybe eto lang talaga ang para sakin. I'm getting older and older, same as my love for him that's getting deeper and deeper.
Den: *sighs* ly wala kaming magagawa kung yan talaga. Just always remember that we are always here for you kahit pagbalibaliktarin ang mundo.
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Im washing the dishes habang nakikinig ng News.
*star patrol! This is it. The most awaited wedding of the Century will happen! Finally kiefer will marry mikaela this October 27 . yes in his 27th birthday. The couple invited only their close friends and relatives so--
That's it! Ayoko na! Suko na ko. Masakit padin pala talaga.
I can't do anything but cry and cry. Sometimes love is really so cruel. Hindi talaga puro saya lang. This tears won't stop alam ko makakatulog nalang ako, may luha parin. Oo, ganon kasakit.
I decided to go to a peaceful place. Yung makakapagbigay sakin ng lakas ng loob. Lakas ng loob na mag patuloy sa buhay ko ng walang kiefer. Napadpad ako sa walang kataotaong park. Gabi na kasi. Buti nalang.
I need you like the air I breathe
You make me feel alive
You're the best part of my everyday
My every night
If only I could travel back in time
I'll take it all back and I'll turn it all around
Eto ang kantang araw araw na nagreremind sakin na hindi ako makaka move on kay kiefer. Kung sana mababalik ko ang oras, sana Hindi nalang ako pumasok sa buhay niya. Sana hindi ko nalang siya minahal. Sana akin nalang siya.
Ly: I wanna go back to the way we used to be
Na best friends tayo. Wlang nasasaktan walang pagpipilian.
Ly: I wanna feel your skin your lips so close to me
Kahit patago yun siguro ang pinaka di ko makakalimutan ang halik at yakap niyang Di ko Na ata mararamdaman. Minahal ko ang taong hindi mapapasakin.
Ly: every smile and every moment, if only have a time machine. I guess hanggang pangarap nalang kita ngayon kief. Hanggang tingin nalang. Sana sumaya ka. Mahal na mahal kita. Pinapalaya ka na ng puso ko.
What's meant to be will always be meant to be. Ito siguro yung nakatadhana. Na hindi siya mapapasakin kahit kailan.
Kief: mahal mo ko pero Hindi mo man lang ako ipaglalaban? Ako handa akong ipaglaban yung mahal ko, handa akong ipaglaban ka.
Hala? Sino yun?! Is that kiefers voice?! Napalingon ako sa likod ko at dun ko siya nakita. Ang taong mahal ko simulat sapol palang. Ang taong alam Kong laman ng puso ko habambuhay.
Lalo akong napaluha. Totoo ba to? Siya ba talaga yun? Baka aasa na naman ako. Baka guni guni na naman.
Kief: titignan mo lang ako babe?
Hindi ba ko nananaghinip?! Siya ba yun?! Nagsalita ehh!
Kief: o sige aalis nalang ako.
Agad akong tumayo bago siya makalayo and I hugged him from the back. I miss this, I miss him. 4 damn years and now I can smell him again.
Umikot siyat ngumiti sakin. He kissed me everywhere letting me feel how he misses me. Miss Na miss ko din to. Ang kiefer ko.
Ly: why are you here?
Kief: nakita ko kasi yung taong mahal ko kumakanta at nag momonologue kaya lumapit ako. Narinig ko mahal niya daw ako at ilelet go. Di naman pwede yun. Mawawala ang kalahati ng puso ko!
Ly: ikakasal ka na diba?
I'm still hugging him and he's doing the same. Muntanga kami dito sa park. Buti nalang kami lang ang nandito.
Kief: Hindi yun totoo. Hahahah. Nagpaplano nga kong bawiin ka at itakas tapos magpapakasal ako? Sayo oo. Pero sa iba Hindi. Ikaw mahal ko eh.
Namula naman ako agad. Jusko kiefer.
Kief: oyyy namumula!
Ly: Ewan ko sayo.
Sabay subsob ko sa dibdib niya. Ang init kasi ng pisngi ko eh.
Kief: babe?
Ly: babe ka Jan. Bakit?
Kief: haha sumagot naman. Im gonna ask you one thing. Want to wish something to you
Ly: ano yun?
Kief: run away with me please? I can't live without you.
Ly: ha?!
Kief: plss.
Ly: haha. Wish granted babe, love you.
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"Forever do exist every person, all we need to do is trust that it exist and build it with the one who we truly love and treasure them to infinity and beyond."
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An: hiiiii🙈 hihi. Sabaw ba? Sorry po✌ I want to update kasi full schedule na naman upcoming days. Huhu. Hope you enjoy reading😘 leave a comment please 💙 at dahil birthday ni kiefer my labs Maya Maya eto ang isa sa nasa bucket list ko to say Happy birthday sakanya. Spread the love 💕💙
