❤️ Not Looking For Love .

Not Looking For Love - 14 .

" You Down or what ? "

The words stunned the shit out of me .

I exhaled and thought about this .

Rocko was a problem , but if I lost baby girl I could never forgive myself .

" Come on Dev , I need you . We brothers man . "

I thought long and hard .

Leak sighed . " Look give me until tomorrow night , okay ? "

He nodded . " Okaay . "

He dapped me up and head out the door .

" Think about this Dev , For real don't let me down . "He said walking out .

He left the house and I shut the door .

I can't let him down we blood , but shit Dyamon Wifey !

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The Next Day

• Von's POV •


Dev texted me this morning saying he wanted to take me somewhere at noon so I got up and got dressed .

I been down and out since the whole Devin thing brought back so many family memories .

I wonder how my moms doing .

After KP died she blamed me and kicked me out .

People tell me they see her from time to time but I just end the conversation .

I already knew Devin was taking me to see my mother , because well Ramon can't shut his mouth .

I already knew how this was going to go , she hated me and wanted nothing to do with me so this would be quick .

I showered and threw on a outfit .

Red polo shirt , cargos , Tims , gold chain and my Rolex .

Hey , this my moms I got to look a little decent .

I texted the boys to let them know I was on my way to the trap .

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After leaving the trap me and Dev headed " out " as he called it .

We'd been driving for awhile and to kill time I text my old chick Nicole .

I was so into my phone I didn't realize we were here .

" Von get out . "

I looked up to see big beautiful White House kind of like my own .

I changed my mind , we ain't at my moms we somewhere else .

Or are we ?

Damn if so moms living this good .

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Me and Dev made our way to the door and knocked .


A familiar face I craved to see again opened the door , my mother .

She flashed her killer smile and wrapped her arms around me .

Ooh now I know something up .

I embraced her back and spoke . " Hey ma , how you doing ? "

She let me go and began to shed tears .

" My baby's home , my baby's home . "

She kissed all over my face .

I laughed . " Maa come on now . "

" Ooh boy stop all that whining it's been years I missed my angel . Come on in . "

I entered the house and she thanked Devin who headed to the car .

" Dev , where you going ? " I asked .

He chuckled . " I'm gonna wait in the car , take your time . "

I nodded and my mom shut the door .

She lead me to the living room and sat down .

" How's my boy been ? "

" Good , living you know . "

She smiled .

" You and KP look more alike by day. " she said smiling holding back her tears .

I cleared my throat .

" Baby I missed you and you look decent . "

I laughed . " Yea , I know how you feel about how a man should look . "

She was now letting the tears fall .

" Man . Oh Lawd , Man Devon . "

I laughed . Moms hated the idea of use growing up .

I looked at the clock on her wall .

-| 5:34|-

She noticed my gaze and sighed .

" Well I know I can't keep you long but I wanted to give you this . "

She handed me and piece of paper with some numbers and a address .

" What's this ? "

" It's where I buried KP . "

The room went silent .

I looked into my mothers eyes and seen more hurt than I ever have .

I went and sat beside her and held her tight .

She cried and cried on my shoulder like no other .

I kissed her forehead .

She patted my arm for me to release her .

I wiped her eyes . " Okaay baby get gone it's getting dark . " She said getting up to lead me to the door .

I followed . " Okaay moms love you . " I said stepping out the door .

She grabbed me pulling me back . " Come visit me you hear ? "

I chuckled . " Yes ma'am . "

She kissed my cheek . " Alright love you . "

• Devin's POV •

Von finally came from out his moms place and hopped in the car .

He looked a lot better than he did earlier .

He handed me a piece of paper and said go .

I already knew we were going to KP's grave .

Me and the guys been before but we never told Von because it would have hurt little bro to bad .

See KP was a big brother to all of us .

He got us in the game and anything else we asked for .

He took us to party's , showed us how to get girls . Shit we all lost or virginity to his girlfriend .

KP was like a father to all of us and when he died we all was hurt but not as much as Von .

My nigga was depressed .

" You think she forgives me ? " Von asked breaking the silence .

" Well do you think she would have invited you today if she didn't ? "

He shrugged . " I don't know , do you think KP forgives me and knows I'm sorry ? "

I left the question unanswered .

" Well we're here go ask him . " I said pointing out the window .

Von hopped out the car and head for the tombstone marked with KP's name .

KP Johnson beloved son , brother and grandchild .

Von dropped to his knees on front of the stone .

I left him and sat on a near by bench .

" He big bro . " Von started touching the stone . " I miss you , I wish I didn't leave that night . "

He started to choke up from all the tears he was trying to hold back .

" KP , I hope you forgive me ! I fucked up I left you ! I left you for dead meat K ! " Von screamed letting loss all his tears .

This was one of the threw times I've ever seen Von like this .

" KP , you remember when we was kids and you always said never trust a soul not even family ? Well I felt like you didn't trust me that night K ! I could have help ! No one ever wants to open the door to opps ( police ) and they say your brother was beaten to dead and shot four time in the head ! K why didn't you let me stay ? I could have help ! " Von voice got louder and louder and he was now standing a kick the tombstone .

" I could have help K , I could have done something . It should be me six feet under and you crying your eyes out . You scared that one day you gonna wake up and everybody will see you as a failure. It should be you taking pills on the daily to deal with all this pain. It should be you momma hates because it was you K ! You didn't let me help and I could have help . It should have been you getting thrown out at 14 , it should have been you KP . It should be you out here slanging to provide for yourself . It should be you KP . "

" It should have been you . " He repeated over and over again breaking down piece by piece in front of the stone .

He cleared his throat and stood .

" I know no matter what I say could being you back , but I know one thing . I can't hurt no more KP . I can't I got to live my life now . I love you and I hope you do sincerely forgive me K . " He said before placing a gold ring on top of the stone .

He looked my way and head for the car .

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We hopped in a silence felled the air .

Von was resting on the window , crying his heart out with no tomorrow .

I pulled up to his house and without a word he hopped out .


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• Ramon's POV •

After the whole Devin thing died down we all went back to our regular ways . Wake Up , Eat , Start Slanging , Meeting , Start Slanging , Sleep and Repeat .

The guys haven't been the same lately but I got better things to force on .

See I got in the game to provide for my family .

Yep family , I got a girl and a baby on the way and the only thing I know is the streets . & Thats all I need in life .

Me , My Family & My Hustle .

• Devin's POV •

On my way how Leak called for me answer about the Dyamon thing .

" Sup little bro ? "

" Nothing , on my way to the crib . "

" Coo coo so you thought about that answer . "

And without second guessing I said " I'm in . Me , You & Dy Sunday Night . "

He chuckled in happiness .

" Look I promise this won't be no mistake Dev . "

" Yea whatever . "