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Hey my name is Lexie. I am apart of what once was Between The Echoes. This is my story on how I managed my depression and anxiety. I also had anorexia.

I was about 10 when i was told that i was anorexic. i wouldnt eat at all. i already knew that i wasnt eating but i didnt know that i was 30 pounds underweight. This news literally scared the shit outta me (excuse my language). Those few months were my worst.

i had entered Middle school that year but i entered there alone and afraid. There was never really a moment where...I actually felt safe. Not just with the school. It was with everyone. People just wasnt my thing. I absolutely hated school and i actually still do. i was never the smart one. i was honestly..The emo..The outcast..The Freak of the school. At that moment in time it was horrible. Then one day...i got called into the principle's office. There was a social worker there. The only thing she told me was 'get in the car. we're leaving.' from that moment forward i was in foster care. i have been in foster care for about 5 years. those were the worst years of my life. In those 5 years i have been to about 35 different schools across the state of kansas. Many foster homes. many group homes. many hospital stays...long term and short term. those hospital stays were for my mental health. The state of Kansas didnt think that i was well enough to live with actual people. Half the time i would sit in my room. behind a locked door. because i was not to be trusted with anything. not even a pillow and blanket.what hurt me the most is that...nobody trusted me. i could not be trusted.

i have changed. so much.

Now...

I am 15 years old. I like to change my hair color frequently and i am probably the craziest kid you will ever meet. I am super fun and i like to stay active with my friends as much as possible. The weirdest kid ever. I listen to crazy music and i try to be a kid as much as possible because in a few years i have to adult and its not gonna be fun. This is the real me ^^^^ i love you. stay strong <3