Remembering (Widowtracer)

Recalling

I paced about the small room, the walls were a faint orange, and adorned with posters of several different Overwatch agents, one including the strange girl that had brought me here, Tracer..
I sat down on a small chair next to the girl's bed, staring awkwardly at my feet, uncertain what to do in this situation.
Tracer was currently taking a shower, I knew that much.
I did not know what will convinced me to come here in the first place and it was tearing at me, I wanted to leave but I didn't at the same time, something..lingering within me said to stay, stay by the girl's side.
It felt like it was only yesterday I had fought with her on that roof, the day I was assigned with the task of killing the Omnic peace leader Tekhartha Mondatta

She was one of the first to ever get close to stopping me.
Of course, as they all do, she failed.
It was amazing that day, I had felt more alive than I ever had on any of my other missions, I watched as she stared in anger and pain at me as Talon flew me away.
Her pain was fascinating to watch, I couldn't help but chuckle at her pitiful self.
So why was I here now?
I stared at the wall again.
Merde, what was I thinking.
I moved my hands through my hair, a little too harshly at first.

"Are you alright luv?'"

I froze and looked up, she was finally out from her shower.
She changed into a faint white shirt, with the symbol of the now gone group, Overwatch, on it, and shorts.
"Hello?" "Ya in there?" She asked, waving her hand in my face
I blinked a bit, realizing I was staring at her and my cheeks flushed..
What is this...warmth?
"Désolé" I apologized
"It's fine!'" She replied, smiling.
"Are ya sure you want to stay ere?'" She asked
I nodded "If you really know about my past self then ..yes, Tra-"
"Lena" She interrupted "It's Lena."

"right.." I acknowledged. "..Lena.."
I stared at her once more.
"So ar' we just gonna sit ear and stare at eachother or what?" She questioned.

"No..of course not.." I replied.

"So.." Lena sat down on a chair in front of me, leaning in a bit close to my face "What did ya remember due to what Winston and Angela did to help you regain your memories?" She inquired.

"Well..." I began, "you...were with me.." I paused, a small headache started to build up "And we were talking about..something, something about the future, and what we were going to do if Overwatch ever disbanded"

Lena leaned a little bit more closer to me "And?" She asked.

"You..told me you had seen what would happen..due to.." I stopped, the headache getting worse, but kept going "an incident with some plane of a sort?"
I stared at the glowing blue circle that was what kept Lena alive or rather existent
"You said you had saw me..but it was not me..it was wrong" I continued "I didn't believe you..I assured you it was all just something wrong with your condition..a nightmare of sorts."

"If only I was not such an idiot" I muttered angrily to myself

Lena heard what I had muttered, she was close enough to hear it.
"You aren't an idiot luv-"

"YES I AM!" I snapped, suddenly, hitting my fist on the table, which left a bad dent on it "I LET MYSELF BE TAKEN BY TALON!"
"AND NOW I CANT EVEN ASSIST THEM BECAUSE OF..OF.."
"YOU!"
I suddenly stood up and shoved Lena hard against the wall, gripping her arms hard enough that it'd likely leave a bad mark
Lena froze in shock for a moment but attempted to comfort me
"L-luv please..don't lose control of yourself again.." She stammered, clearly afraid of the situation.
I continued to grip her arms, adding even more force to it, a bit of blood ran down her arms from small cuts caused by my nails piercing her arms
Lena grimaced in pain and attempted to push me off.
I quickly moved my hands to her neck, in an attempt to choke her.
She quickly grew paler and her attempts to get me off got weaker and weaker till her arms eventually fell.
I let go of her and she collapsed, motionless against the wall