Regrets | Rick Grimes

chapter 1

FOR NEW READERS AS THIS STORY HAS BEEN A LITTLE MORE POPULAR LATELY:
THIS WAS WRITTEN WHEN I WAS 14. ANYTHING THAT SEEMS IMMATURE/INACCURATE/DOWN-RIGHT STUPID IS BECAUSE I WAS STUPID. THERE WILL BE MANY INNACCURATE/UNLIKELY PLOT POINTS THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE. AGAIN, I WAS 14. I GENUNIELY APOLOGIZE FOR ANY INSENSITIVE/UNEDUCATED PARTS AND HOPE YOU ENJOY READING ANYWAY. 

TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE

ELLANY'S POV

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He threw me into his office, slamming me against the desk. I shrieked out in pain, avoiding his gaze at the same time.

"Take off your shirt." He demanded.

I nodded quickly, crying, taking off my shirt. He urged me to continue, so I removed my bra. He stared at me, touching his lower parts.

He quickly took off his belt, then his pants disappeared, along with his underwear. He clearly wasn't a patient man.

"Go on." He pressured me to remove the remainders of my clothing. I did as I was told, while he stroked his erection, and tears rolled down my face.

He stopped after a few minutes, then immediately shoved me onto my back on the desk, and slammed into me. I screamed out in a mixture of forced pleasure and pain.

"Say my name." He commanded me.

I gasped under my breath, "Phillip."

He slammed into me harder, "Scream my name."

"PHILLIP!" I forced myself to cry out.

After a few minutes of him shoving into me consistantly, he finished. My face was soaked with salty sweat and tears. He pulled out of me and stepped away, leaving me there in a hatred filled daze.

He quickly put his boxers and jeans back on, then his belt. I lay there, completely naked. He set all my clothing on the desk next to me. He at least was human enough to do that.

Phillip left, while I lay there. I pulled on my clothes quickly, then stood by the window. Phillip was just making it out of the building, and I could see my friend Merle talking to him, and the Governor was just playing it off as if nothing happened.

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"And then Daryl just came home, and made himself a sandwich. But he said his ass was itching something awful. His words, not mine." Andrea said.

Andrea and Michonne showed up a few days ago. And we just hit it off. Andrea had been telling us about her old group, Daryl, Rick, and some guy she had a thing for, Shane. She told us that Daryl was Merle's brother. That kinda made me smile, I've been fantasizing about finding Daryl while Merle and I were on a run someday.

"What annoyed me the most though, was Glenn and Maggie. We all knew they were together. But they were constantly just... ugh! See now, true love is like Rick and Lori. Lori was pregnant to Rick's best friend Shane, and Rick was still willing to take care of the baby."

That almost saddened my spirit. If I had a husband, and Phillip got me pregnant, I would hope my husband would still love me. Rick seemed like a strong man. Lori seemed like she was misunderstood. Shane seemed to be a little like Phillip.

"So Ellany, how's the baby?" Michonne asked, looking to my almost fully grown stomach.

"It's been 9 months since he raped me. It feels like 10." I joked. Michonne and Andrea were the only people that knew he raped me. Of course, everyone in Woodbury knows I'm pregnant, they just don't know it was rape.