"Every little thing, is gonna be alright."
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I don't see a point in life. I mean, does anybody? Yeah, god put us on this earth for a reason. But can you tell me what the reason is? I mean think about it, everyone says "everything happens for a reason," but if that's true, what's the reason? You can't just tell me that, and NOT have a reason. So here I am, 13 year old Layla Mendes, searching for a point in life. And if you know it, tell me.
I hate it when people tell me that's everything's gonna be okay. They always tell me that. And it never ends up being okay. And I know what people say, "13 years old, she's way too young to be depressed," but think about this. Am I really? I mean, you're never too old or too young. There isn't an age limit to anything, you just know.
I truly understand people. And people say I'm weird, or I'm socially awkward even. Well, obviously. I know I am. I'm not proud of it or anything. Im just used to it. People say you fake a smile and get through the day, but I don't. I'm really happy through the day at school, or with my family. But when I get home, the waterworks start. Sometimes its not even for a reason.. It just happens.
People always tell you that you can come to them when you have a problem. But do you think I wanna come to you? Like, I keep my problems to myself.. If you ask what's wrong, I tell you I'm okay. But I'm not. Everybody knows it. I am not okay. I just push through people, and ignore them. I don't want or need your sympathy. And if sympathy is what you're looking for in this book, then go ahead and leave. Because I'm not gonna feel bad for your depression if I have the same thing. We can't lay around feeling bad for each other.
This book is truly pointless. But does anything have a point? I'm not saying I'm gonna kill myself or anything, trust me I'm not like that. I do wanna live and see what the world comes to in my generation. Its actually quite fun to watch as the world comes falling down in front of my eyes. And I'm glad I have my loser friends to be here with me to watch it.
No, this book is not suicidal or depressing. Its actually going to be a comedy. Because my life is a comedy. My life is about making people laugh, and I usually fail because I'm what people call, "obnoxious." Sometimes I just take it too far. But you can never cross the line when it comes to putting a smile on someone's face.
So if you have no life, or you love me, you'll continue to read this. Or if you even just wanna relax and read something, you'll read this. Unless you don't like reading.. Which makes me question why you're reading this in the first place.. Whatever floats your boat.
