How We Began

life

My whole life, I've been bullied, teased, marked, stereo typed, and one thing has made me happy the thought of the future, having kids, getting married, going to college, getting my dream job. That's what keeps me going. Right now I'm sitting in my English class I'm quiet sit in the front I think that my teacher is trying to get me to participate, it's not going to work, in this class everyone hates me, well mostly everyone, they make fun of me with the stupidest things but they have figured out what pushes my buttons, there's this one kid, he is one of the only people in this class that hasent purposely offended me, and wow is he cute! I think I'm going to ask him to prom it is comming up and I don't think he's going with anyone. We're friends we hangout at lunch somtimes we have a few classes together. Maybe I should ask him.

So, I asked him and he said yes he didn't believe that a person like me whould like him he also said he's liked me for years, I only knew who he was 3 months ago. This Friday's prom my moms taking me dress shopping today, I absolutely hate dresses so shes going to let me get what I want, at least I'll try, right now I'm in the dressing room waiting to try on a pink tutu style dress let's just say, no.

Ok so we picked out a dress black dress princess-ish sleeves and a hood let's just say I'm pretty ok with it I'll probably pair it with so black and purple stripes socks and converse , this is going to be amazing! I'm always taking about how much I hate the human race and much rather be a fish but this may actually be fun!

I get ready, I put my hair in a princess bun, I made it a bit messy, then I did my makup, it was my usual black eyeshadow, eye liner and mascara, I felt nice put together, I may be a little underdressed but I always am.

Ok so I'm dancing around having a great time suddenly my vision blurs and slowly tunnels out. Next thing I know i see bright lights and hear beeping I try to sit up a pain rushes to my head and grabbed it grimacing at the pain. My date was there my parents were outside of the room I saw outside the huge windows talking to the Doctor my date says "ya you hit your head pretty hard I would expect it to hurt"
I gave him a confused look and said "what happened exactly?"
He continued with "oh! Sorry, um well you passed out hit the floor hard, so we called an ambulance and your parents and got you here asap they did some test while you were sleeping there telling your parents what happen right now!" Then he pointed at the window then they came in and the doctor said " I really hate to have to tell you this but your starting to have heart failure and in you don't get a transplant you will die at age 20, estimate of course but not long" I sat gave him a very blank akward stare. My whole life is looking towards the future come on you last a few more years and you get to go to collage,date, but now it's all have put me on a long waiting list getting a transplant soon enough is close to impossible. Then I realized how long it had been and I said "Thank you, um when can I go home exactly?" He stared at me with aw as if I asked him if was pregnant, or like I just told you your are going to die and your are wondering when you can go home? Then he said " well we are going to keep you over night then we'll put some heart tracker doohickey on you and you will be on your way we would advise you to take a few days even weeks off this is a serious thing" so I said good bye to my date and his parents and thanked him for taking me to the dance and gave him my phone number. Told him I'd call him when I got out. Then after a few hours my parents left and said they would be back to get me in the morning, after a few more tests the doctor and the nurses left me in the dark to sleep, they wanted me to sleep worrying about my life I couldn't believe them ask if they even had a clue how terrible this is?