Blackmail

Chapter 1

One day this will all end. One day this will all be over. One day there won't be an us. One day I won't have friends, family, a boyfriend. I am not scared of that "One Day".. Well atleast I thought I wasn't until, that "One Day" came.

April 7th 2009
"I remember everything clearly what happened that night. That was the night when my whole life changed. I don't even know how to explain it or even begin. I went from your typical 14 year old teenage girl, to the girl you feel bad for. Don't get me wrong, I am far from perfect, I have definently done some bad things, that I don't want to bring up, like today I-.." Wendy! What are you doing, you need to be doing your homework! Not this damn diary! I give her a sharp look. "Well mother, maybe if you knocked I could atleast to pretend to be doing it!" Right then I regret even responding back to her. "Well maybe if you actually did good in school, maybe I would buy you a reward, or take you out shopping! Instead you just cause trouble! Why did I get a call from your princapal saying you skipped class again Wendy! I don't know where I went wrong but this behavior is unacceptable!" Wow mom you just don't understand do you? You think the world revolves around values and being a good girl, well guess what I am not a good girl, I will never be a good girl. I snapped back at her with a smeared grin. I was expecting for a response but she didn't say anything back, she just left the room. I slammed the door so hard it felt like I shook the house.

April 16th 2009
"My mom and I haven't spoken for a little over a week. I didn't even do anything wrong she is just being dramatic and overreacting." I put down my pen and let out a deep breath. I lay on my bed bored out of my mind when I get a text from my best friend Kay. She has been my best friend since kindergarten! Well kind of we didn't like each that much because I put gum in her hair and her mom had to cut her hair, I got in big trouble for that one. I mean I even remember taking her lunch! I guess you can say I was a bully, because I kind of was, but I was going through a rough time because my dad left us because my mom went crazy and then he left me here with her. I'm still mad at him for leaving me here with her, it's not that she's a bad parent she just doesn't give me freedom! I suddenly snap out of it when I get another text from Kay, "Um hello?? Pizza and a sleepover tonight?" I quickly reply "Yes!! That's exactly what I need!" I jumped out of my bed and got all of my stuff ready, but then I hear this big crash followed with a scream. "Mom? Is everything alright down there!?" I dropped my clothes from my suitcase and slowly approach my door, I open the door and I am greeted by thick grey smoke. "Mom! Oh my god... Mom! Mom where are you!?" I glance down the stairs and I see her apron on the floor, I quickly run downstairs but coughing on the way. I felt like I was suffocating, I couldn't see because my eyes were burning, I touched my moms hand "Mom! Mom are you alright?! speak to me! Mom! Please Mom!" I heard footsteps from afar but they were fading I remember my eyes falling heavy and I looked at my mom one last time. Red thick blood on her face, and then nothing.

April 17th 2009
Beep. Beep. Beep. I slowly start to awake when I see a man at the end of my bed. He was crying, I don't know why he was crying but the more my eyes opened the less blurry it got. This man was my dad. I go to open my mouth to say something but nothing came out... What am I suppose to say, "Oh hey, what's up haven't seen you in 10 years you didn't even bother to call and now you finally come back!" I am not worried about him though I am worried about mom, I want to know how is she, where is she, is she alive? Please God let her be alive! "Oh honey, I'm so sorry.. I'm so so sorry I haven't been there for you.. Why did I have to mess this up.. I'm so sorry." Yeah, you only care because I almost died, not because of the "family". Would it be differen't if I wasn't in a hospital wearing gauze? "Where is mom?" the look in his face when I said that sent chills down my spine. I repeated myself "Where is mom? What happened to her!? Is she okay?" I began to panic my heart was beating faster and faster. "Listen sweetie, I'm sorry but your mom..-" No. No no no no! Don't you dare finish that sentence there has to be something! You can't just let her! Please dad! Please out of all the things in the world please don't tell me she's gone please! There was a silence and tears streaming down my face. My dad wipes them and kisses my forehead and just says "I'm sorry".

May 10th 2009
"It's my fault, it's my fault all of this happened. My last words to my mother that cared so much for me, weren't even a I love you. It hurts, I am hurt. Everytime I sleep now I see my mom laying on the floor with thick red blood all over her face. Who knew that was gonna be the last time I was gonna see my mom, alive." I lay on my bed once again, well new bed.. I had to move in with my dad for obvious reasons. I just lay on my bed and think. "What if I was down there with her? What if I could've saved her? What if she did it on purpose?" so many what if's and no answers for any of them. I would love to see my mom and tell her how much I love her but for now I can't, next time I see her will be in heaven when she is an angel. My chest tightens up as tears run down my face making my mascara run. One day it was an ordinary day, and then the next day it was a nutshell. "I can't say it to you in person mom, but I'll say it now, I love you".