i am dying.
no i'm not kidding. you read it right.
you see, a few moments ago i left home in a state of disarray.i'd fought again with my mum over the same old things.
" you don't listen to me."
"you never try to understand me."
"you are a bad influence for your younger brother."
"you love him more than me. no wait. you don't love me at all."
same old sentences. anyways this time around i guess i hurt mum too much and she burst into tears.i was flooded with guilt.why the fuck can i not keep my mouth shut?
before the tears could run down my eyes , i exited the house because i hated crying in front of others. it exhibited weakness. climbing into my beat up red beetle ,i drove off without any particular destination in mind.
maybe i should try to understand her too. maybe she loves me but isn't able to exhibit it. maybe, just maybe she worries about me and that is why she stops me from going out too often. jon won't be happy when he hears of this. dad -
OUCH
a sudden sharp pain in my sides caused me to swerve off the road and straight into a muddy ditch . now i had more to worry about than the pain in my abdomen. i felt a warm liquid trickling down my temple and a dull throbbing pain in the back of my head. my arms were twisted beneath me and as my vision cleared i could see the now shattered windshield and the few glittering pieces lodged into my arms.
how did i end up here? i try remembering.
fought with mum. over...something? drove off the road. her name is ... Annie. for one scary moment i have trouble remembering. i'm so sorry mom i should've never foug -
OUCH
a sharp pain shoots up through my legs.
pressing one bloody hand to my knees i resume.wait. bloody hand? how is there so much blood around.
OW. my neck hurts. my head hurts. why am i here in this cramped position.what happened?
i fought with mom. i drove here and swerved. why?
OUCH
i love you so much mom. dad. jon.
my arms start trembling uncontrollably. as if they're twisting into themselves. shrinking.
my name is .... julia. i don't remember. why can't i remember.
everything pains.
black. everything has turned black. weightless. a sudden gush of air.i can't see anything.
all i hear is deafening silence. i feel as though my soul has been liberated.
a brilliant light falls on my eyes and i squint. clenching unclenching my fingers i kick out my legs as slow dulled out voices fall on my ears.
"it's a girl! congratulations."
"what are you going to name her?"
i open my eyes. two warm eyes staring down.
"Julia."
A/N: woop! had that idea in my head for a long long time. here it is. in words.dedicated to noelle cause you my role model girl. you da real MVP.
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