I'm too tired to dream and I'm too hopeless to start believing.
Why do I need to stay alive?
Because of Oxymoron.
Fucking Oxymoron.
Just forget it.
It won't work.
I am going to disappoint you.
Why did you choose to befriend yourself with me?
I should have pushed you away on the first day that we met.
On that way I could never hurt you.
You could have become happy.
You could have just ignored me.
I am a fucking time bomb.
One day I'll go up.
And then everyone who's around me, everyone that I started to get attached to, gets hurt.
That's why I usually push people away. But if people decide to stay with me, it's their fault if they get harmed.
I've warned them.
I don't want them dead.
But I don't want to be left alone either.
That's how selfish I am.
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Do you wanna knlw what is speacial about you.?
Do you want to know a reason why you should stay alive.?
Let me show it to you.
But for that, I need time.
Would you give it to me.?
Til I find a way how to tell it?
If you would, you need to do one thing.
Please stay alive.
That's all I'm asking for.
