Kells? Where are you?
I'm sorry. I love you. It isn't your fault.
Kellin what are you talking about?
Kells!
KELLIN QUINN TEXT ME BACK GOD DAMN IT
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Vic's POV
I ran to Kellin's house. I fucking knew I shouldn't have let him stay there alone. But no, I let him convince me to go back to my house and sleep. And then this happens.
He said he loves you...
I couldn't help but smile a little at the thought. I had been crushing on him for six years. He and I had been best friends since preschool. We were as thick as thieves. Still are.
I finally reached Kellin's house and ran in, up the stairs and through the door on the right which I could find even if I was blind, I had been here so often. And sure enough, there was Kellin, pill bottle in hand, curled up in a ball by the window.
"Kellin.... Fuck." I felt my eyes sting as I started to cry. The beautiful boy looked up at me and started crying too.
"Viccy.... I don't want to die.... Help me Vic please.... Save me." He barely whispered, but I was by his side in an instant.
"Kells... This is going to hurt." I picked him up, brought him to the bathroom, turned and looked at him, and punched him in the gut, causing him to hurl into the toilet. I wanted to cry for hurting him, but the only other way to get him to throw up would be to shove my hand down his throat, and I didn't want to go there.
He continued throwing up for ten more minutes, and I sat next to him and rubbed his back while I waited for it to pass. Once he was done throwing up, he turned and looked at me.
"I couldn't handle it anymore Vic. I can't be happy. I don't know why. Every single time I'm happy, something happens to make me sad again, and I'm sick of being sad. And all the bullies don't help. So I thought: well maybe if I die they'll all feel like shit and go through what I have to go through. So I just did it. And then you texted me, and I realized that this was going to kill you. I couldn't do that to you, I love you too much. I just did it in the moment without thinking and I hate seeing you this sad and I hate that it's becuase of me. Please Vic, please don't hate me. I can't lose you. You're the only thing that's keeping me alive." I started crying, and instead of answering I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight.
"Can you stay with me tonight?" I knew I couldn't leave him alone like this, nor did I want to, so I nodded and helped him up.
We walked back into his bedroom, and I watched as he stripped down to his boxers and hopped into bed. I covered him with blankets and quickly turned on his fan. As I walked over to his closet to get out my sleeping bag, I heard him mumble something.
"What was that Kells?"
"Just sleep with me tonight please." I started blushing as I turned around to face the dork.
"Isn't that a bad idea? As two very gay, very horny teenagers? I mean I'm okay with it but I don't want us to lose our friendship or for there to be any weirdness or anything? Like, will we be cool if we both wake up wrapped around each other tomorrow or would we be weird? I just-"
"Vic, you're rambling. You only ramble when you're nervous. What's up?"
Shit. How do I get out of this one?
"I... Uh..... Okay fuck.... KellinI'minlovewithyou" he looked at me confused.
"Vic you know I can't hear you when you talk super fast and quietly" I sighed.
"Kellin, I'm in love with you. I have been for six years now. And I know I shouldn't throw this on you after what just happened and I'm sorry but you asked and that's not helping is it? Never mind, I'll just shut up now." I looked at the ground, preparing myself for the rejection that was about to come. Kellin still didn't say anything, so I got up, grabbed the sleeping bag, and turned off the light. I was in the process of rolling my sleeping bag onto the floor when I heard Kellin get out of bed. He turned on the light, blinding me, and walked over to me.
"I love you too. I meant it when I texted you it." And then he did the best thing imaginable. He kissed me. Kellin was kissing me. His lips were soft and cold, and the cold had me nervous because I knew it was because of the pills but I totally forgot about that when Kellin pulled away and grabbed my hand, leading me over to his bed. We both curled up under the covers together, and Kellin wrapped his arms around me.
"You could make hell feel just like home.... I'm never leaving you Vic. I love you" he kissed the back of my neck, and I was relieved when I felt that his lips were warmer.
"I love you more Kells. Please stay with me" He tightened his grip on me, and I knew that he wouldn't leave me.
