After going off on one at my dad he finally says I can have my hair cut. My dad then calls some hair dressers but not many are open. I ask If he can call his hairdressers but he says no because 'It's a gentlemen's barber'. I tell him that It doesn't matter because I want to be a boy and they also specialise In boy's haircuts then my dad says something that surprised me.
'What do you mean you want to become a boy?' I sat there shocked because after coming out to them they think It's fake. They thought It was just a phase, a stupid thing that would go away after a while.
Like a brick, It all hits me. I realize that everyone I've told just brush It off and don't acknowledge It. How could I not have noticed? I thought they were just trying to get used to the fact that the person they once knew as a girl was actually a boy all along.
I keep saying Inbmy head 'I am a boy.' and 'I am Sebastian, not Bethany.' but It's not working. I'm hyperventilating. I think I might have another panic attack now.
I've got to go and calm down.
Sebby Out.
