I was once a nonbeliever of great love. That love where you offer your soul to someone. You'll die for her and sacrifice everything. I can't do that. But just like how Romeo fell in love with Juliet and died for her. My beliefs fade when I met her.
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"I told you to stop lurking around! You have a responsibility! How did you became a doctor when you can't even properly hold a scalpel?!"
I can just sit here the whole day, just like how my mom can shout and talk whole day. She'll repeat her same ooooold lines. Next time, maybe I should record it and whenever she feel like lecturing me I'll just told her that I'll watch her recorded video.
"You're not even listening! You're twenty eight already Simon Elloyd! When will you grow up?!"
Napatayo ako ng biglang tumayo si Mommy. She became uneasy. Napahawak siya sa sintido niya.
"Mom? What is it? You're not feeling well?" I saw how she rolls her eyes.
"Get away from here, Simon. You're giving me a headache." Tumaas ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya. This is not her usual finale.
"Is not supposed to be 'Get a life, Simon. Man up'?" She glared at me and so it's my turn to be confused.
"Sumama ka sa medical mission sa Bukidnon. I won't take a no for that." Then she walked out in my office leaving me dumbfounded and left with no choice.
I hate province. Damn
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Hotel de Alexa
Nangalumbaba ako sa taxi habang tinitignan ang hotel sa labas. Tatlong palapag lang yata iyon. Bumuntong hininga ako. I have to stay here for one month. Would I survive?
"Sir? Bababa na ba kayo?"
Napangiwi ako sa matigas na accent ng driver. Inabot ko sa kanya ang bayad at bumaba na. The medical mission is in Panadtalan, Maramag Bukidnon. I can't stay there so I have to stay in the hotel. Hindi ako makakatulog sa matigas na kama. No matter how I tried to console myself I just can't smile. I can't believe my mom sent me here.
"One room" The receptionist didn't even take a glance on me. She immediately type something in her monitor. Nakayuko siya so I got curious with her face. Her hair is tied in a clean ponytail and she's wearing a puscha pink uniform with big ribbon collar.
Our eyes met when she handed me the slip and the key. I don't know what have gotten into me. The girl is obviously not in the mood. There's no sign of hostility in her face.
"Aren't you supposed to smile?" I blurted out. Tumaas ang kilay niya at umirap.
"I can't smile. People who has problem doesn't have to smile. Now hand me your payment and go to your room number." I can't move. Her eyes is so tantalizing. It's like keeping me numb. There's something happening in my system. Bigla akong kinabahan sa titig niya. Have you ever felt that your heart is like gone and all your veins keep pumping blood? Is that possible?
"God. I'm a doctor."
"Oh. Doc, yung down payment niyo po. Ayos lang po ba kayo?" Saglit na tinitigan ko ulit yung baba. She sounded pissed and irritated. I saw her nameplate.
Danielle Alge.
I took a deep breath before giving her my payment. I feel weird. Nilingon ko siya ng nasa hagdan na ako. My heart stop. She is smiling. Tinignan ko siyang nakangiti sa baby na bitbit ng isang babae.
Why is she smiling? I thought she has a problem and that it's hard to smile. Dumako ang tingin niya sa akin and her smile faded. Umayos siya ng tayo at seryoso ng inasikaso ang ginang na nasa harap niya.
Women and their mood. Tsk
And I should actually scream cause the hotel doesn't even have an elevator. Yes the hotel looks new but I still don't like it here. The following day is a nightmare. I have to be a kind, loving doctor. Sucks.
And then that woman in the hotel keep pestering my system. I knew somehow that I am attractive to her. She's pretty, I can give her that.
I'm not interested to woman. In a relationship, actually. I mean I'm interested with women and their sex but not commitment. I hate commitment.
I saw her smiling to a male spices the next day. I won't deny that I am frustrated. The next day she's not in the hotel and I had to ask where she is and I don't even know why it bothers me.
The next day she came back with a big smile on her face. She even greeted me. That's when I started to feel like seriously weird. Week passed and the feeling of wanting to see her is beaming fast. I want to see her. Talk to her. Make her smile and know her.
I started making a conversation everytime she greeted me. I started noticing her face, memorizing her beautiful face. The way her eyes stare. How dark is the color of her eyes. Her thick long eyelashes swayed when she is about to smile. I started observing everything she do. I know when she's about to smile. Her eyes will shine first then her red sexy lips will follow, showing her white and complete tooth. I know when she has something bothering her. Her eyes can tell me a lot of things and her eyes is like invading my whole system. It became isolated.
I started courting her. I started doing things that I never even once imagined. In just a matter of one month. I fell so much into her. In Sundays she will bring me along with her family in the church. She has an ordinary life compared to mine. Their house is made up of wood. Bungaloo style but theirs feels like home. She'll cook for me in dinner and she'll tell me something about herself and I just lost it.
Everything she has makes me want them too. Everything she feel makes me want to feel too. I want to be a part of hers. I want to be her life.
"Dan, I know it's too early but I swear to God. I fall hard. I am completely smitten. If this is what they call love then I'll risk my life to feel this forever with you. Dan, I am in love with you. I want to be a part of you." I told her thay one night at their house.
And God is good all the time. I can't believe I'm gonna thank God so much. He gave me the best gift ever.
"Simon, I am in love with you too."
I can't believe there's a feeling like this. Like your life is being cut into two. You can't live without the other. Without Danielle. I'll lose my life.
