~^PAIN & REGRET^~ (Let This Be A Lesson Sequel!)

~Time To Face The Past~

Justin Pov

I was in the courtroom waiting for this bullshit hearing to start when I heard all this commotion outside. everyone rushed out so I followed to find Leah on the floor and Diggy holding her head up while the er people were checking her pulse and blood pressure.

My first Instinct was to run over to her and check on her but that was not gonna work. since I am not allowed to be near her OH and her brother hates me! it hurts like a bitch to see the one you love be hurt and know that not only did you caused it but that you can't do anything to stop it.

I watched as they put her on the stretcher with an oxygen mask and rolled her back to the truck. right then and there I realized that no matter how much I loved this girl, my wife I...wasn't good for her.

I started to think back to the night I had met her, yeah...her beautiful eyes when she had woken up from being unconscious at the party. To how I couldn't get her out of my mind ever since, how I tracked her down and professed my love for her at the Espy's. How she gave me a second chance after she found out who I was after the espy's, our greece incident, wedding, honeymoon, how my bastard of a father told me to take care of her (how could I do this to her, shouldn't have listened to him), how she lost her memory, her laugh, her smile, cooking skills, everything about her, and the time I bumped into her back in college. All these memories came flooding through my mind like movie credits.

Even though I loved baby girl (wifey) wi th everything in me, there were certain things I couldn't share with her. things from my past that were too painful for me to deal with hell, idk when she left me the first time It hurt me, but I fought to get her back. then when were going good this memory loss b.s. comes up, and her atitude toward me... she's hot one minute then cold the next.

I know what I did to her was wrong but how was I suppose to react that's all I knew dammit. I never had a father teach me right from wrong and how to treat a woman right. I grew up having to figure It out on my own. But Im grown and I have to get my anger/abandonment issues together. as my I was thinking, I heard a door shut n looked up to see it was the ambulance truck. I looked around and everyone was staring at me in disguist shaking their heads.

I started to feel shame and guilt as I looked at what are life had become. I remember the times when we couldn't get enough of each other. it was like we were on top of the world. when I married her I swear it was the biggest achievement in my life to date! I thought we had it made that the world was ours.

Now look at us...its like everything is falling apart. I'm doing things I vowed I would never do to her or myself. but I guess promises were meant to be broken huh?... (wipes tears)...I'm gonna fix this though I have to....and I know just where to start! (pushes through the crowd then gets in car and drives home)