CHAPTER 4
(AN: sorry forgot to put a an at the end but this is where the story truly begins tell your wattpad friends about my book please as always comment vote fan)
Soph xxx
(CARTERS POV CONTINUED)
After all the hugs of the guys I told jinx the address the ride home was full of questions such as 'what's your favourite colour?' 'Do you have a middle name?' C.C even asked what was my favourite pizza topping, im not going to lie that was quite funny all the guys began to laugh after he had said it C.C's remark back was 'dude we got to know we don't wanna get the wrong pizza topping for tea now do we' after about a 15 minute drive we turned up outside my house. As jinx took the key out the ignition the engine died down it was about 3'oclock so mom should be in and the twins should be back from school as I walked up the drive way I could hear spongebob from out here it is quite funny how loud they have it and yet they still think its quiet. I knocked on the door three times I looked back to see the guys behind me giving me reassuring smiles "mom carts home quick open the door, mom!" I chuckled to myself as Ashley and Andy swapped confused glances at each other about three seconds later the door opened to find a very flustered mom who was soon knocked back by Jake and Josh who clung onto my legs making me loose my balance and I fell onto the grass just like two days ago before Hayley was in the hospital it feels like a lifetime has passed since I last saw her its gone from seeing her everyday to not at all yeah I know I sound sad talking about her that way but I love her my Hayley, the Hayley that all the jocks at school fancied the ass of and because of that bitch Amy put her in there I was soon ripped away from my thoughts as my mom called me inside to pack my things and said the guys can come inside as well as she needs to chat with them scene as I am going to be staying with them for the next three months. I was pulled into the living room and called the twins in as well I sat on the sofa cross legged and the twin curled up beside me just like they did the night of the concert soon after they were asleep they looked so peaceful when they were asleep I slowly moved the twins so I could get up and pack my things but josh looked up at me with his hazel eyes and blonde hair and sleepily said "can I come and help you pack" it bought a tear to my eye the fact that he wanted to help me pack, I nodded at him and he took my hand and lead me upstairs. As we got upstairs josh grabbed a suitcase for me and picked up one item of clothing at a time waiting for me to fold it and put it in the suitcase once all my clothing was in the case I packed the essentials such as makeup, straightness, my beanie hat and my blades but I packed those later on this time josh was putting it in the case as I knew what I wanted to pack "carter, don't forget us when your away and call us as much as you can im going to miss you, we all are" as he said this a tear rolled down his cheek it broke my heart to see it " Josh, I'll call every day and ill write a letter when we move around and if your lucky I might even get you and Jake a souvenir from everywhere we visit" the tears carried on flowing so I fastened my suitcase and put it on the floor I sat on my bed and picked Josh up sat him on my lap and started to sing the morticians daughter to him
'I open my lungs dear,
I sing this song at funerals ... no rush,
These lyrics heard a thousand times ... just plush,
A baby boy you've held so tightly,
This pain it visits almost nightly,
Missing hotel beds I feel your touch,"
"I will await dear a patience of eternity ... my crush,
A universe so still,
No rust,
No dust will ever grow on this frame,
One million years I will say your name,
I love you more than I can ever scream"
"We booked our flight those years ago,
I said I loved you as I left you,
Regrets still haunt my hollow head,
But I promised you I will see you again"
"I sit here and smile dear,
I smile because I think of you and I blush,
These bleeding hollow dials ... this fuss,
A fuss is made of miles and travels,
Roadways are but stones and gravel,
A bleeding heart can conquer every crush"
"We booked our flight those years ago,
You said you loved me as you left me,
Regrets still haunt my saddened head,
But I promised you I will see you"
"We booked our flight those years ago,
I said I loved you as I left you,
Regrets no longer in my head,
But I promised you and now im home again, again, again,
Im home again, again, again
Im home again"
Josh's breathing had evened out telling me that he had gone to sleep so I picked him up and as I began to pack my blades put them in the bit what josh said to me told me that I needed to stop what I was doing to myself so while still having Josh im my arms I grabbed my suitcase and headed downstairs my mom heard me coming down and got Josh of me, just as he did he woke up, "thank-you for singing that song to me carter" my mom put him down and Jake joined him "you ready to go" my mom asked me with tears welling up in her eyes, "I think so" I looked at Andy and smiled, he gave me that heart melting smile back. All of a sudden Jake and Josh tugged on the back of Andy's trousers; Andy crouched down to the twin's height "what's up?" josh suddenly said "if you hurt our big sister in any way or get her in trouble you got us to answer to" as they finished their sentence they stood in a boxer's pose, they looked quite funny actually considering they are practically four ft and a fag butt each "ok guys we wont" and with that the twins walked back to me without a care in the world and gave me a hug before I went at this point my mom was holding back the tears but you can tell they were there I gave my mom a hug and a kiss goodbye. And the twins were just clinging onto my legs for dear life crying into them, so I let my suitcase go and picked them up they hugged me and gave me a kiss on both cheeks and said goodbye as I walked out the door, the door I wont see again for another three months as I walked back onto the bus jinx and Jake were in the front of the bus discussing something about guitars just as me, Ashley and Andy all sat in the booth in the living area. As I looked out the window I saw mom and the twins waving goodbye like their was no tomorrow I waved goodbye and they went into the house again just as we pulled away from the house, this is going to be an adventure of a lifetime.
