A Longing Love 》Nouis Book 2 (#Wattys2015) ✅

BONUS CHAPTER - Interview

"When I went to school, I used to write songs and sometimes play them on my piano. I never sang, I still don't, I don't think I'm good enough to be a singer. My songs got given to an ex-boyfriend, he sang them, and he did such a wonderful job. Anyway, we got back together and started dating. He-" 

I had to stop, catch my breath. Just thinking about Niall broke my heart just a little more. I took a deep breath once again.

"Sorry guys. I should probably just explain why I wrote this song. Well, I loved him, he was the best thing that ever happened to me, but as it got closer to us finding our dream jobs, he left me and obviously I was heart broken, so this song is about our break up. Niall Horan, if you see this I would love to hear you sing this one day too" 

I stopped talking and repositioned myself to be able to play. I was still hesitant on this. I hadn't been playing this song long at all and I was nervous as it was. I would most definitely screw it up. There was no way I'd be re-recording this if I do. With one last very deep breath. I began to strum.

It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end

It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends, yeah

I know you're saying you don't wanna hurt me

Well, maybe you should show a little mercy

The way you look I know you didn't come to apologize  

The chorus was about to begin and this was heartbreaking. I was still kicking myself for whatever part of my brain thought this was good to post this. I was managing to get through the chords without missing one and managing to sing without a shaky voice. I couldn't sing. Not as good as Niall, but I wanted him to see how I felt

 Hey, hey, hey

Oh, why you wearing that to walk out of my life?

Hey, hey, hey

Oh, even though it's over you should stay tonight

Hey, hey, hey

If tomorrow you won't be mine

Won't you give it to me one last time?

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye  

Another quick breath. I could do this. I could finish this.

Unforgettable together, held the whole world in our hands

Unexplainable, a love that only we could understand, yeah

I know there's nothing I can do to change it

But is it something that can be negotiated?

My heart's already breaking, baby, go on, twist the knife

Hey, hey, hey

Oh, why you wearing that to walk out of my life?

Hey, hey, hey

Oh, even though it's over you should stay tonight

Hey, hey, hey

If tomorrow you won't be mine

Won't you give it to me one last time?  

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye  

This next part was risky. I had planned to hit a high note at the end of the verse. It really adds something to the song. And after many practices I had lots of errors and broken notes. But once I succeeded it once, it just continued to come to me. 

One more taste of your lips just to bring me back

To the places we've been and the nights we've had

Because if this is it then at least we could end it right  

I succeeded it. And I couldn't help but for a small smile to fall across my lips as I finished off the song in such a beautiful way. 

Oh, why you wearing that to walk out of my life?

Hey, hey, hey

Oh, even though it's over you should stay the night, yeah

Hey, hey, hey

If tomorrow you won't be mine

Won't you give it to me one last time?

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye

Oh, baby, let me love you goodbye

"Thanks guys" I shut the phone off and fell backwards onto the couch I was sitting on. I debated for a long time about posting this video. But I did. And it was the best decision I had ever made. 

Ellen only showed a small part of the clip, but it was enough to get the jist of the situation. I bit my lip, just waiting for her to ask me questions about it. 

"It seems like you had a horrible break up?" 

"Yeah, well, we were young, we needed to go our separate ways. I hope one day we'll see each other again though" 

"At the beginning you asked for Niall Horan to sing this song. Any connection there?" my mind ticked over what to say.

"I'm a fan of his stuff, and he has a wonderful voice, I would love to hear him sing it" I didn't technically lie. But I didn't tell the whole truth either. And with that, it concluded my interview. 

"Well that has it everyone. Louis is set to start his new season this weekend, grab your tickets and don't miss it" 

The cameras stopped rolling and I let out a relieved breath. That felt like the hardest thing I had ever had to do in my whole life. Besides dealing with Niall leaving me. That was the hardest. I just dreamt that one day he will come back to me. I miss his warmth, his smell, his laugh, his everything. No one compared to him, my one night stands, my attempted dates. Nothing. One day it will happen. I can see it. 

A/N so last chapter I mentioned about Louis writing and singing Love You Goodbye, I thought it would be good to put it in here, as well as those damn nudes Louis sent in the first book that Brodie and Chelsea sent out. You know what fame's like. Got a few more bonus chapters I want to write I probably could have thrown these in the book but oh well