Tf2 X Reader

"I will be here.. Always"

You ran a hand through your (h/c) hair. Sighing heavily as you stare up at the ceiling of the living quarters. You leaned back, the clanking of springs as you adjusted in an office chair. You have been a (What ever class ya feel) for as long as you can remember. This place. It had its up and downs sure. What place doesn't. But this place was your home. You were with the people you loved. It's not like you never missed you real family but. For what your job was. Murdering people daily to stay alive. The people you worked with, you all became close soon enough. But recently for the past few days. No. Months. You have changed. And your (Blu or Red)  team noticed.
Scout, who was your best friend . Like your brother. Even asked you what's up. You just snapped your head towards him. Thought a moment but just smiled. "Nothing. Stubbed my toe. So just a little .. Uh. Irritated . Y'know?"
He nodded and smiled. "Ah I feel yah there (y/n)."
You then engaged in a normal , laughable conversation.

But right now. It was 6:25 in the afternoon. Everyone was doing their own thing. But no one was in the living lounge . That's where you sat . Thinking. And thinking. And thinking. A terrible habit of yours. Over thinking.

~Flash Back~

Ring Ring!
You picked up the phone that hung from the wall. You cheerfully turned back to the guys. "Just a sec! I got it!"
Turning back to the wall ,
"Hello?"
"Oh (y/n) I'm so sorry.. I." You heard the sobs of your mother wrack your body.
"Yo woh woh Mom mom what's up ? What's goin on!?"
"It's. It's Laura she's ... She.. Oh (y/n) she got into a car accident. And... "
You felt your stomach turn. Your heart sink. As your fist clenched.

"Hey (nickname) what's the matter?" Sniper called over.

You didn't even think about turning away as your mother finally spilled the last bit into your ears.

"She.. She didn't make it."

You eyes widened. You stood there. The world seem to stop. Your jaw opened. And closed. Like a fish out of water. As shock took its toll you dropped the phone in your hand and it swung against the wall.

"Uh. (Y/n)?" Scout said this time.

You shook your head and snapped back to reality. You felt your eyes daring to burn. So you quickly took the phone. Pretended like nothing happened as you said.
"Uh love yah mom gotta go bye." With that you hung it up. Then turned back to the group of guys that waited for you to return to the table.
You shrugged a laugh, "heh. Go fish ?"

~now~

Laura . She was your best friend. Had been since you two were just 10 year olds. She was as close as Bestys could get. Even closer than you and scout. She was even going to join the team. Just to be with you. That's what happened. She was on her way to see you. And now. She never will.
Tears finally started to trail down your face as you let out soft sobs of the previous events tackle you. That's when you got up. And stalked down the hallway.
You noticed the infirmary just down the hall. One large metal door slightly ajar. Medic. You thought. You felt some of the blood rush to the tips of your ears. But then another shiver of tears rained down your cheeks as you let out another son.
You did have a crush on medic. No. You sometimes could've sworn you were. Well. In love with him. How his accent and eyes drew you in. How sweet and tender he could be even when his other half could rip you apart in seconds. He marveled you . And you loved him. But ... This heart wrenching tragic situation was crushing you into newly burnt ashes as it slowly tore you piece by piece because you just had to keep thing bottled up. You were broken. Trying to glue yourself back together . Without even shedding a tear. You knew it was gonna happen. But not like this.
Not Like This! She Shouldn't Have Left! Not Like This! What was echoing in your head and you squinted your eyes shut. Then next thing you knew was the only couple inches you were away from his door. Wiping some of the tears from your face you breathed in shakily as you pressed forward.

"What's the matter Fräulein?" Medic wondered over his shoulder when you walked into the infirmary.
"I... I was wondering if.." You played with your fingers nervously staring at the ground.
"Ja?"
That's when the tears started again to well up in the rim of your eyes.
He turned wiping his hands with a towel when he stopped abruptly when his eyes landed on you weakened state.
"(Y/N)!? Liebe? What's wrong?!"
He quickly rushed over , tossing aside the towel and pulled you into his loving arms. He stroked your back and hair as you buried your head deeply into his chest. Finally letting out the hurricane that has been brewing in your soul, your heart, your mind. Finally mourning for your friend . No , your sister who could never be respawned.

When the heaves started to quiet down Medic gently moved you so he could look into your eyes. His arms still wrapped around you protectively.

"What's the matter Liebe? " he said softly tilting your chin up under his fingers.

You stare into his icy blue eyes as he does to your (e/c) .
You take a deep breath and he nods walking you over so you can sit on the examination table. He liked away for only a second to roll under him a doctors chair as he scooted close to you.
Breath in and out you looked once more at him. He nodded as if he understood exactly what you were getting ready for.
"M-my best friend. Her name was Laura. " you sniffed.
"We. We were the best of friends. We used to do everything together." You started to smile sadly as you recalled the good times in your head.
The memory's playing like an old projector.
"Like eat lunch . Heh. . Or prank the teachers in the teacher lounge. Even when we fought. We'd. Get thing back together again. She was coming here. To join us (Reds or Blus) but..." You stopped. Letting out a shaky breath.

"Ja Liebe?" Medic rubbed his thumb soothingly over your knuckles. Your skin soft under his touch.

"She ... Died on the way here. A stupid semi skidded across the road and right on top of her car . crushed her and.. Killed h-her. And I've done Nothing !" I started to cry even harder as the painful rage built up in me.
"I HAVE DONE NOTHING THAN PRETEND THAT EVERYTHINGS OKAY! That.... That nothing happened. I wished I had told how much I loved her. How much she meant to me as my friend. As my sister. I miss her so much." Medic stood up and hugged his arms around me tightly. I pushed my faced deep into the crook of his neck and sobbed loudly as he whispered soothingly , all in German ,
"Shh Leibe
Alles wird gut werden. nichts ist deine Schuld. es gibt nichts, was Sie getan haben könnte . aber wissen, dass Sie dies nicht aufhören konnte . und wissen, dass sie dich liebt . und das ist völlig normal. und . ich liebe dich Liebling. Sie sind erstaunlich und schön. und ich werde hier sien immer "

Translation:
Everything will be alright. nothing is your fault. there is nothing you could have done. but know that you could not stop this. and know that she loves you. and this is completly normal. and . i love you darling. you are amazing and beautiful. and i will be here . always.