Find Your Way

Chapter Thirty-One

But I was wrong.

He's smiling devilishly while looking at me with pure disgust. I have no idea why because as far as I know, wala naman alam ang pamilya ni Jade tungkol sa aming dalawa. Her mother knew but it was never confirmed. Ang nakakaalam lang naman sa relasyon namin ay ang kapatid niyang si Paul.

Then it hit me.

The pictures that Jade showed me before were all from him. From his father. Jade never told me who it was from but judging by the looks on his father, I knew it was him. At hindi nga ako nagkamali ng aminin niya ito mismo sa harap ko.

My anger rapidly rose from my chest it started hurting. My mind instantly went dark as all I could think of right now is how I can kill this beast right in front of me. But I instantly washed it off my head. I shouldn't be dealing with that at this moment. Ang importante sa'kin ngayon ay ang makausap si Jade. I don't have the time to deal with it now.

So instead of punching and strangling him, I knelt in front of him. Swallowing all my pride and dignity just for Jade. My anger turned into overflowing tears that I didn't mind controlling.

"Mr. Tanchingco, nakikiusap po ako. Let me talk to Jade please."

"Who do you think you are, Ms. Guevarra? Wala ka ng hahabulin sa anak ko. Hindi ka na niya mahal dahil engaged na siya kay David."

His confirmation stung but I can't give up yet. Hindi ako maniniwala hangga't hindi ito nanggagaling kay Jade.

"Mahal ko po ang anak niyo. Hayaan niyo lang pong magkausap kami at kung totoo man po ang inyong sinasabi, ako na po mismo ang lalayo sa kanya."

"Lapastangan kang babae ka! Sinasabi mo bang nagsisinungaling ako?! Kahit libutin mo man ang bahay namin, hinding-hindi mo na makikita si Jade. Sumama na siya kay David sa China para doon na manirahan. You see, Ms. Guevarra, ayaw ka ng makita ng anak ko. Mas pinili niyang umalis ng bansa dahil alam niyang hahabul-habolin mo siya."

With that, I choked. I was stunned. My head felt like spinning. I can't even move an inch. I just stared blankly on the concrete ground while my eyes suddenly stopped crying. My hands automatically formed into fists until my nails dug onto my own palms, making it bleed. I heard him still talking about something but my mind couldn't comprehend what is it since his last statement was the only thing reverberating inside my head.

I'm hurt as hell. I'm in so much pain I felt lifeless.

Jade, bakit mo ba ginagawa sa'kin to?

Akala ko pipiliin niya na ko over David. Akala ko she still loves me kaya hindi niya ako magagawang iwan. Akala ko sasamahan niya ako lumaban muli para sa pag-iibigan naming dalawa.

But I guess I expected for nothing once again.

My chest instantly felt a pang whenever I remember that day. It has been two years but everything felt like it just happened yesterday. I've been trying hard to keep it off my chest and deny the pain I'm feeling but it still haunts me.

Ito kasi ang mahirap kapag pinaasa at umasa.

Umasa na naman ako na meron talagang for keeps sa aming dalawa. Pero anong magagawa ko? Mahal ko eh. In fact, makita ko lang siya ngayon and ask for apologies, I would gladly welcome her with all my heart despite of what she did to me.