Tears Of Love - Myla's Depression (Completed)

Kabanata 2

PTSD

"But how are they now?" Chad asked me again, he was asking about my brother and my bestriend, Amy.

(Read their story: Tears of Love - Amy's Endeavor ).

"It's all messed up. Kuya Ricky's fault, kung sinabi lang sana niya ng maaga kay Amy lahat, hindi aabot sa ganito." Malungkot kong balita, inaamin kong nasasaktan din ako para sa kanila.

We are talking about what had happened to my brother and my bestfriend. It's a very long story.

I just arrived here in Paris all the way from the Philippines. Chad offered me this job before.. at ngayon nga ay bumalik na naman ako, medyo matagal tagal na din akong nakatira dito. Kinailangan ko lang umuwi para bisitahin si Amy at Kuya.

But I am glad that I am here now. I finally escaped.

Nakita kong sumimangot si Chad. "Grabe ang Kuya mo. Akala ko ba mahal niya si Amy."

"He does! Of course he loves her so much. Kaya lang ay naglihim siya kay Amy. Diba nga dapat ay honest ka kung mahal mo ang isang tao." sabi ko because I had to defend my brother.

My brother cried a lot when Amy left him, galit man ako ay naawa din ako kay Kuya. He went through a lot of pain, until now.. kung tutuusin.

Maybe this is our fate? Magkapareho ba kami ni Kuya? Kinakarma na ba kami? Ito ba ay kapalit ng pagkakamali ng ibang mga tao? Kung oo, bakit kailangang kami ang makarma?

"Kaya mahirap magtiwala ulit, eh. Maraming mga sinungaling.." Sambit ni Chad, dahilan para tumingin ako sa kanya. I know why he said that.

I sighed.

"Eh, ikaw? Inamin mo na din ba kay Amy na alam mo iyong mga nangyari simula noong una pa lang?" He asked.

Yumuko ako at umiling, iyon ang isa pa sanang sadya ko kaya ako umuwi ng Pilipinas ngunit hindi kami nakapag usap ng mabuti ni Amy. Ayokong isipin na sinungaling ako dahil hindi ako sinungaling. I just didn't tell her.. yet, I was very scared, hanggang ngayon.

"Not yet. We didn't have much time when I went home. She has changed a lot, Chad and I can't blame her. Tsaka huli nga naming pag-uusap ay tinulugan niya ako." Ngumiti ako ng mapakla. Remembering little things makes me want to see Amy and hug her. Dapat nga ay siya ang kasama ko ngayon.

Chad didn't say anything but he cleared his throat after a while. "N-Nakita mo si.. ano noong umuwi ka?"

"Sino?" I asked. Pero syempre ay alam ko kung sino ang tinutukoy niya. I just wanted to make sure, at kung pwede ay gusto kong iwasan ang tanong niya.

He stood up and sat beside me. "You know who."

"Sino nga?"

"Travis."

Napayuko ako.. I was right.

"Hindi. What do you expect? He's done with his plans already, why would he show his face to me?"

Bigla na namang sumakit ang dibdib ko. Bakit ba niya pinapaalala ang lalaking iyon? Does he even know that for just simply remembering him is like a torture to me?

"Ay! Tinanong talaga ako?" Natatawang sabi ni Chad.

I didn't talk. Ayokong makipagbiruan kung ganitong bagay, lalo lang akong nasasaktan. It's all fresh for me at kahit ngayon ay hindi pa nawawala ang sakit. Mas masakit pa nga ngayon kung tutuusin.