Tears Of Love - Myla's Depression (Completed)

Kabanata 1

May

"What?" I clarified.

I just wanted to make sure if I heard it right. O baka naman imahinasyon ko lang ang mga narinig ko sa kanya?

We were inside his bedroom. We just woke up after a very long night of making love that always happens whenever I am here in his condo unit.

"You heard me. We are done, go home.." He said as he put on his pants.

I sorted the shirt I was wearing. Bigla akong nakaramdam ng ginaw dahil sa sinabi niya. Done? Like.. what does he mean by that? Hindi ko maintindihan.

"D-Done? A-Anong ibig mong sabihin?" I clarified again.

He turned his back on me so I was not sure if he was just tripping or something. Pero napakaseryoso ng boses niya, imposibleng biro lamang niya ang mga iyon.

"Done!" He shouted.

He looked at me once again and his eyes were very aloof, at hindi ko iyon kayang tignan ng matagal. "Go home. Get all your stuff here. I don't want to see any of it, even you.."

I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my chest. I can't believe he's actually saying these things to me, it can not totally enter my mind! Hinding hindi.

I opened my mouth but I shut it eventually because I realize that I have nothing to say. Ano ba ang pwede kong sabihin? Should I beg for him to stop?

I swallowed hard, at humugot muna ako ng lakas ng loob bago magsalita. "Nagbibiro ka l-lang ba?" Tanong ko kahit alam kong hindi siya nagbibiro.

Pero.. gusto ko lang manigurado. Umaasa parin ako na lahat ng mga sinabin niya ay biro lang.

He faced me. "No. I am more than serious, Myla."

I didn't talk.

Pero bakit niya sinasabi ito?

"I despise you," He hissed. Muli ay nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.

I got so confused at the same time.

"W-Why?" That was the only word that came out from my mouth because I really don't know why. I really don't. Wala akong ginawa para magalit siya ng ganito sa akin.

He came closer and looked at me. "Kinamumuhian kita.." He said it again, at mas masakit dahil kitang kita ko ang galit sa mga mata niya.

I looked at him. I wanted to make sure if those words were really coming out from his mouth.

"T-Travis. Pero--"

"Shut up! Don't call me Travis. Call me nerd boy. Iyon ang tawag niyo sa akin moon di'ba? What makes it different now?" He hissed, and he was very mad. Nanginginig ang mga boses niya sa galit.

Ngayon ko lang siya nakitang nagalit at ang totoo ay natatakot na ako.

Pero kumunot ang noo ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Nerd boy? Iyon ba ang rason niya kaya siya galit ngayon? And.. nerd boy? "Anong sinasabi mo?" I asked. I wondered if what else I've done wrong that made him very furious right now. 

He turned his back on me and picked up his shirt on the floor. He looked at me once again as he put on his shirt. His face was ruddy. Hindi ko iyon kayang tiisin na titigan.

"You used to loathe this face right?" He pointed his face. "But look at you now!" He angrily pointed his finger on me. "You look stupid when you can't have a single glimpse of me."

I took a deep breath. Yes, he's right because I always want to see him. 

"This?" He pointed on his abdomen. "You only want these right?" He was pertaining to his abdominal muscles! What?