Alone

Chapter 3:Paradise in Hell

Tatiana's Pov- You wonder why I say I have a paradise in hell right well look let me just start from the beginning.

FlashBack- 4 Years Ago

Fuck Love - Why look for something that doesn't exist ? When no one knows what it is, what is love exactly? What does it mean to feel? What does it mean to have emotions because I lost all mine!, I'm done with everyone, everything, anything FUCK IT, I don't see what's so - I got cut off with my writing with my mom opening the door, uggh what now!!?!

""Tadi what are you doing?" she asked

"Writing poetry mom, now please leave my room" I said nicely

"Can I read it?" she asked concerned

"No, you can not" I said getting aggervated by how she bothers me

With that she snatched it out of my hands and began to read it.

"What the hell?" she said with anger in her voice

"Its poetry mom" I said

"WITH all these words in it, I think not, since when did you feel this way because last time I checked you get to much love at home?!" she said wuth full rage yelling at me

"I always have, you claim you know me - with that she cut ne off"

"I do know you, I've raised you I know you" she said

"No you don't because if you did you would understand how I felt since I was 6 years old you don't know me you never did, you never will because you focus on your side and your ways and you controlled me since day one so no you don't know me. " I said in an angry tone.

With that I got slapped in the face and worst whooping of my life I still have the brusies and with that my life has never been the same after that day my life has been pure hell.

Back to reality!!!!

After 10 Mins of Praying I got my key and opened the door to see my mom giving me a death glare.

"How was detention?" she said staring at me

"Fine" I said making sure I stand close to the door

"Oh so being after school with a boy is fine what did you do sneak out and have sex!!" she screamed

"No ma'am the teacher watched us do our homework " I said scared out of my mind.

"Oh so why were you with this boy? " she asked in an angry tone.

I paused for a minute, with that question ringing in my ears "Why was I with this boy?" kept playing in my head why? I never knew its like I'm fire and he's ice 2 things that never mix either way it goes both of die of killing eachother in the end both end with the same fate, death we both die of the pain that we both cause. As that question kept ringing in my head I had nothing left to say as I stood there staring at the ground I ened up getting a blow to the face indicating I've been striked with a punch to the face, with me landing on the floor, with the eyes of no expression looking at my mother.

"Answer me when I'm talking to you!" she said to me yet another time around 

"I didn't do anything" I said with no emotion looking at her deep in the eyes.

But then she said the worst

"But if it was a cheese burger you wouldn't be in trouble now would you?"