Out Of Nothing At All

Part Twelve

He answered almost immediately.

"Y/N is everything okay?"

No. No it wasn't. It wasn't okay at all.

"I'm in the bath. And there's blood. I'm bleeding. Oh god, oh god. What do I do?" your breath coming out in tiny hiccups.

"How much blood Y/N? Are you in pain?"

"I can't tell. The waters pink.....I don't know!!"

"Okay. Get out of bath carefully and get dressed. I'll be there as quick as I can."

He disconnected the call and you looked down, trying to assess how much blood there actually was. You couldn't tell, the water having diluted it. But it was definitely there.

You pulled yourself out of the bath carefully, dressing in your pajamas and finding a pad in your cabinet, securing it to your underwear. Finding an old FBI academy hoody, you wrapped it around you and collected your things.

When Hotch arrived you were sitting by your front door, knees drawn up to your chest and tears streaming down your face. Any pregnant woman knew that blood was a bad thing this far along in the pregnancy.

"Come on, Y/N. Let's go." He spoke softly, leading you to his car and strapping you in.

"Have you called your OB/GYN? Is Spencer meeting us at the hospital?"

Spencer.....

You shook your head. "We had an argument."

An argument about how you were going to bad mother and how he knew you'd wanted to get rid of the baby. What if this was karma? The universes way of saying "serves you right" for being so selfish originally.

Aaron sighed, and switched his cell to speaker mode in its cradle."What's the number of your doctor?"

You reeled it off and he made the call, the secretary advising that the Doctor was on call tonight anyway and would make her way to the hospital. Thank god for private health care.

He dialled Reid next, and when he answered you could hear JJ in the background.

"Spencer, you need to make your way to the hospital. Level 7." That was where the secretary had advised you to go.

"Sir? What's happened? Is it Y/N?" Panic in his voice suddenly.

"She's bleeding Spencer."

You heard a thud and then strange noises. You couldn't hear Spencer then, only JJ. She must have taken the phone from him. "Hotch we'll be there as soon as we can."

The rest of the ride was silent, Hotch clearly not knowing what to say to you and you struggling to keep it together.

When you arrived at the hospital, you were shown immediately to a private room, the nurse advising that your Doctor was on her way and would be another ten to fifteen minutes.

"You and Dad try to relax. Are you in any pain?"

You shook your head, not even bothering to correct her. The only pain was the feel of your heart breaking.

"Okay, if you're wearing a pad, we'd ask that you change it now, just so we can run some tests and try to measure how much your losing."

She offered you another pad and a sterile pack to put your used one in. You disappeared into the bathroom, not looking at the smeared cotton as you discarded it into the bag and handed it to the nurse.

You climbed onto the bed, curling into the fetal position and hugging your stomach, Aaron sitting in the chair next to the bed.

You couldn't stop thinking that this was your fault. You didn't want her and that your body had finally decided to listen to your needs and do what you wanted.