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Anthony,
I'm writing you this because I feel it's the best way to say the things I have been wanting to for so long. I've had my eyes on you for a while, how handsome you are. That chocolate skin tone and those perfect glistening abs when you take your morning jogs. Those beautiful almond shaped brown eyes..
How sweet you seem to be, when you help Mrs.Rodgers across the street, helping her with her groceries.
Sometimes I wonder if you even notice me...Because if you don't, this will probably be the most embarrassing thing I have ever done. What if you have a girl already? What if you're in love.
That's why I couldn't do this in person, I would feel so stupid. You'd probably just laugh at me with your boys or think I'm crazy.

Maybe I am.

You see, I've been single for a while now not even thinking about having a man again...
But when you moved in, across the street from me that all changed. The minute I saw you I was craving your personal attention I almost came over to help you move your things in and decided against it, thinking that might be a little too weird.
Would it have been?

I watched and I didn't see anyone else around until about 10 minutes later when a red car pulled into your driveway and a thick light skinned girl got out, looking like she belonged in a hip hop music video. I secretly and shamefully hoped she was your mother, feeling a little jealous because I knew she couldn't have been. She looked way too young more like my age. In the mid to late 20s.

And then you came back out, with your shirt off... Six pack all out just glowing in the sunlight. And "miss thang's" face lit up with mine. The difference, and the thing that made me even more jealous was the fact that she got to touch and feel on it while I had to watch.

I watched that same woman come to your house a few times after that, a long with a few others so I knew you wasn't married or in anything serious with any of them but the thought of it still had me on edge. I wondered if they knew how many other woman you had coming over probably showing the same great time too. I wondered if any of them had developed feelings for you... And then I wondered what it would be like with me, if it would be different. It was like I had challenged myself in that moment. Like I could be the one to win your heart or something. Should I even want to?
I know I shouldn't but it's hard not to. It's hard to not just run across the street, knock on your door and pounce on you when you open it so I know it would be hard for anything else.
But, I've accepted my own challenge.

I will have him. Whether it's in bed, in heart, or both... I will. I thought to myself as I put my pen down to take a sip of my wine fantasizing the thought of being in bed with him. Wondering how gifted he was.. Mmm.

Suddenly my fantasy was interrupted by an incoming call from my twin sister. She just had to ruin my fun.

"What do you want Haylee, you always interrupting something!"

"Hayden shut up. You and I both know I didn't interrupt anything. When's the last time you had a man?"

"When's the last time you kept one longer than a week?" I shot back.

"Now see you ain't right for that. These lil boys need to grow up before they can handle me. Besides, I called you cause I miss you and you tryna snap at me. So I guess you won't be excited to know that I'm on my way over."

"What? You could have told me earlier but it's cool. I'll be here and sorry for snapping but you did kinda start." I said, making sure to point that out.

"You know I just be playing. I'll be over in about 20 minutes and I'm bringing brownies!"

"Weed brownies again?"

"Act like you know!"

I laughed with my sister and shook my head before hanging up. Haylee stayed making weed brownies, smoking weed, anything to do with it she loved it. I can't lie though they always taste soo good and have you feeling even better. I remember the first time I tried one, she had just finished making a fresh batch... When I say some of the best brownies I ever had I promise that!

I took a quick shower and threw on some skinny jeans and a fitted top, I didn't think dressing up too much would be necessary since it was only my twin coming over. She didn't mention going out anywhere and I wasn't trying to impress anybody. Well... Maybe not at that moment.
30 minutes pass and finally Haylee pulls into my driveway, smiling too much stepping out with these containers of brownies in her hand.

"You can't wait to eat them brownies can you? You probably been eating some on the way here." I joked holding the front door open for her to get in.
While waiting for her to walk up, I see Anthony on his front porch with his video vixen.
I must have been staring hard because Haylee took notice and cleared her throat at me.

"Well well well... Look at you fantasizing about that man while he on the porch with his woman. Girl get in the house before they see you and we have a problem."

"I was not fantasizing. Besides, that ain't his woman." I replied shutting the door and following her into the kitchen.

"And you ain't either! AHA!"

"You always got some jokes. If I want him I'll have him. I'm not worried about anybody right now, I'm tryna-

"Focus on me" rightttt."
She cut me off.
"I already know Hayden, you say it all the time. I saw how you was looking at him though. You was wishing you was on that porch with him. I don't blame you, he is good looking! Chocolate too."

Ugh! Why did she have to remind me. She was right though, I wanted so badly to be in that woman's position, sitting on that porch with him, or even sitting on something better😏
Yeah, better. And I plan on getting it.

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