Shawn Mendes Imagines

Fading Memories

Y/N's P.O.V.

"I'm sorry, but I just don't feel the same anymore...I don't love you..." 

As Shawn said that it felt like my world had frozen, my heart shattered into a million pieces, and my thoughts raced around my head echoing around every corner of my brain. 

"You w-what? W-why are you doing this?" 

It took all of my power to spit out that sentence, each sob becoming louder, and all the love Shawn once held in his eyes had been drained being replaced by a stone cold expression. 

"I just don't feel the connection between us anymore Y/N, I don't feel the love that we once shared. I found someone else, I need to move on from what we had and start fresh."

Never would have I thought that those words would come out of his mouth, but there I stood listening to the love of my life tell me that he fell out of our love and found someone else.

"W-was it something I did? Can I still fix this?" Why can't he love me back anymore? Why am I not enough for him? Was this all a joke, did he ever love me?

"It's not you, it's just...I think we need to go our separate ways and see new people. We've been with each other for four years, and over time I've just felt like we were growing apart. I need a break, we need a break."

He didn't even shed a tear, he showed no signs of sadness or guilt, nothing. He didn't care, I meant nothing to him at all. I gave him my heart, he tricked me and ended up stomping all over it.

"So this is it, after those four years this is how it's going to end?! You mean the world to me and I love you with all my heart, but you never did. You never cared, you never loved me, I meant nothing to you!" 

I was absolutely furious, how could someone just fall out of love after fighting four years to be with each other? After waiting countless months to be in each other's arms, to be embraced and loved by the other, how could all of that be just for nothing?

"Y/N, I will always love and care for you. You were my first love and I could never forget about you, life just has a odd way of telling us that things were going to end up this way" 

"Life was in our favour, you just had to interfere with that"

All of those times where he said 'I love you' meant nothing, they were just three empty words, and now they were fading memories.

***

And as I sat here in the shade of my oak tree, I look back into my old box of memories from years ago, staring at all its contents. I look back at the photo of a boy and I sitting and laughing under what appears to be the exact same oak tree. However, all I could really remember about that boy was that his name was Shawn, and that memory. 

A few months ago I found out that I have early Alzheimer's, and day by day I continue forget things. Sometimes I forget the month of the year, and others I forget my parents' names. Although my memory seems to be giving out, snippets of important memories keep flashing in my mind at random times, and I can't help but feel angry at myself for not remembering all of them.

I feel even more angry for not remembering the boy who seems to appear the most, I've seen him in many pictures from my memory box and in photo albums, but I don't know why he's there. Even though I don't remember him, I feel like he's a big part of my life. However, at the same time I feel heart broken. Frustration and sadness take over whenever I see him, but I don't know why.

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Shawn's P.O.V.

My life has took an unexpected turn. My girlfriend Stacy cheated on me a year after we had gotten together, and now my parents won't even talk to me. Aaliyah won't dare to look at me, and tries to avoid my presence. They warned me about her, they told me that I was going to get my heart broken, but I didn't listen and I broke up with the actual love of my life. 

Y/N was always there for me, whenever I needed to hear her voice and talk to her, all of those nights I snuck her out of her house to stargaze, and all of those meaningful embraces and kisses, I've taken for granted and she'll never forgive me. I've realized that I have made the biggest mistakes in my life, but I'm ready to fix them. Even if Y/N has moved on I'll still fight for her, I'll fight for us because she means the world to me, she always has and always will.

***

My heart is beating out of my chest, my palms are sweating, and I feel like I'm going to faint. This is it, this is my chance to make everything right and get back the love of my life. I brought my hand up to the door of Y/N's childhood home and knocked three times. I heard footsteps walking towards the door and when it opened there stood Y/N, looking more beautiful if that's even possible. In that moment I didn't care that I haven't seen her in three years, I pulled her into a tight hug and held on for my life afraid that she'll disappear if I let go. However, she just stood there frozen with her arms by her side, not hugging me back.

"Y/N I missed you so much you have no idea, I'm so sor-" 

"I don't mean to be rude, but do I know you?" She looked genuinely confused, which made my heart break even more.

"Y/N it's me, Shawn" I could feel tears brimming in my eyes, this has to be a joke there's no way she could've forgotten me.

"I'm sorry, I don't know a Shawn" As she said that her mother came from behind her.

"Hello Shawn, how are you?" Y/N's mother questioned.

"I'm kinda worried, why can't Y/N remember me? What's wrong?!" By this point tears were ready to spill out at any moment and I was raising my voice more and more with each word said.

"Shawn, Y/N has early Alzheimer's she can't remember you or her childhood" 

I couldn't help it, I broke down sobbing on her front porch. I should've been there for her, to care and love her, but now it's too late and it's all my fault. The love of my life can't remember me, and all of our memories have faded away in her mind.

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I'm so so soooo sorry for not updating in over two months, I've been busy with school and sports, but I hope that this somewhat makes up for it. If you want an imagine feel free to leave a request in my inbox, and I'll try my best to make one for you! I hope that you guys enjoyed, make sure to vote and comment if you liked it!

-Georgia

04/10/16