Chasing the unknown

Prologue

Have you ever gotten that feeling where you just don't know? Like you actually don't know; you've gotten tired of trying to figure out everything and everyone around you. Well that's how I've been feeling lately. I might've gotten used to it. It's just easier, you know? You feel kind of numb to everything else, like nothing can disturb you anymore, because you simply don't care, and you just don't bother to try and figure it out. Although I have to admit that sometimes at nights, these little thoughts start hustling into my brain and make me all kinds of fucked up. That's when the numbness disappears. I start thinking about my future: my aspirations, fears, expectations. What if I fail? What if I give up when I was really close to accomplishing something? How would I have known? I told you, it really fucks me up. But that's just half of what comes into my mind. I swear I'm not as depressing as I sound, but just bear with me. Follow me, Lauren James, as I make my journey into the world. Just hope I don't trip or something.