"Yes, dad?" The loud crowd deafens me, I hurried away from the Inkigayo stage.
Yeah, you love me right.
"Wait a sec." I ran towards the waiting room where the stylists with some other staffs were waiting, watching the boys perform.
"What is it again, dad?" I spoke as I try to catch my breath standing infront of the door.
"W-What?" I can hear what my dad has been saying from the other line, but my mind cannot process things I've been hearing.
"But why? I can't leave them right now." I can feel the pain banging on my chest, i feLt my knees weaken. I sat down on the couch trying to grip myself.
"But-" I was cut. It's his decision and I know that there's nothing I can do to change his decisions.
"Okay. Yes. Will do. Bye." I turned to look at my phone, I can feel the heat burning my eyes as tears started flowing from them.
Some staffs noticed and started to worried about me.
"Miss Soo Jin, are you alright?" Asked by Baekhyun's stylist.
Lay's stylist came running with a bottle of water.
"Y-yes. Please get ready, they'll be back soon, thank you." I started wiping some tears from my face as I grab the bottled water.
"Yes, Miss." I calmed myself down and thought of a painless way to tell them the news.
As I was about to stand, the boys came in. They were so happy and energetic even after a tiring week of performing and promoting their new album.
"Noona! You okay?" Chanyeol notice me and sat beside me.
"Of course. Just tired." Suho stood infront of me.
"Our noona has done so much hardwork." He pat my head with his luxurious smile.
"You guys have done well, too. And for that, we should celebrate!" The boys started cheering, laughing and jumping except for Kai.
He stared at me the whole time while everyone was getting ready for our night out. I can't take his stare, I looked away, he knows me too much that I can't hide anything from him.
After an hour, I brought them to a restaurant near the Han river. The restaurant was so serene and calm, definitely a perfect location for me to break the news.
"Noona! Thank you so much for your hardwork and patience on us, may we have more days, months and even years to work together!" Holding his glass of soju up high, Suho announced.
I can't keep myself fom being emotional. How can I do this?
My tears went down without prior notice. Everyone was startled except Kai. He was still staring at me, the same way he was staring at me in the waiting room.
I wiped the tears away and smiled.
"I love you, guys!" I was laughing and crying.
"Awww. Noona! We love you too!" Chen and Sehun answered back.
After eating, I got out of the restaurant to breathe some fresh air. I just can't help thinking that I'll be ruining their happiness, once I told them.
"It's too cold, you should get in." I was startled by his voice.
"I miss the air out here. I need to breathe the air from Han river." I faced him as he walk towards me.
Kai stood beside me and stared at the Han river.
"What's on that beautiful mind?" He asked.
"W-what?" I asked back.
"I know there's something wrong. You're eyes are swollen when we get back from the performance. You were also quiet on our way here, it seems like you're thinking about something. There's no reason for you to cry, but you did. So what is it?" I knew it, I couldn't hide anything from him.
The wind blew my hair and I started to shiver. I took a deep breathe but before I could speak, he removed his coat and placed it on my back.
"Do you know that some paparazzi might be here, taking a photo of us at this moment?" I asked sarcastically.
"I don't care as long as you don't catch colds." He stared back at the river.
"Kai, we've talked about this right?" I like him, I do. But I can't. We shouldn't.
Kai looked up at the sky and breathe heavily.
"I've already given what you want, so please just, at least, let me do these things for you. Now, don't change the topic. What is it?" How am I suppose to say this?
"Noona! Kai-hyung!" Xiumin ran towards us.
"The manager told us that we should get home now." He informed us.
I should tell them now.
We got in and I returned the coat to Kai.
"Everyone, before we leave. I have... to say something." Again, I can feel the tears behind my eyes.
The boys settled back, waiting for every word I was about to say.
"First, I want to thank you. Thank you for giving me the most exciting experience of being your manager. Thank you for all hardwork and patience. Thank you for being kind, for loving me and for understanding Noona all the time." I took another deep breath.
"No words can express how proud I am on your success. We've been together through the group's ups and downs." Tears began to roll down again, Sehun handed me a box of tissue.
"I love you all, and you know that, right?" I was trying to lift the mood but it seems all of them has the idea of how this is going to be.
"But it seems every good thing has an end." I continued.
"My job as your manager has been done, effectively tomorrow."
