Never Again ~ Carl Grimes X Reader

Alexandria ~ Chapter 1

{ Note To New Readers : Before you comment about how horrible this is, I PROMISE it gets better as the book goes on xD }

~ Things To Remember ~

(Y/N: Your Name

(H/C: Hair Color

(E/C): Eye Color

Alexandria

A little safe haven for those in need.

The place that saved me from the world.

The place that I met my best friends Ron, Enid, and Mikey.

Walls were built around the town, and it was well kept.

It had food, water, supplies.

It was perfect, and I was happy again.

I felt safe again....

- Flashback -
I was with my older sister, Penny, trapped in an abandoned house. The dead were surrounding the house, and neither me or Penny had any ideas on how we would survive this.
One of those things broke through the window, and started crawling towards us. I grabbed my lucky pocket knife, and clicked it out.
"Okay... Just stab it in the head!" I thought to myself.
As it got closer and closer, my heart pounded faster and faster.
"Just kill it already!!" Penny screamed in terror, pulling the knife out of my hand. She hurled herself at the thing and nailed it straight in the skull.
"Now THATS how it's done!" She exclaimed.
Just as she turned her back to the now broken window, more of the dead started to stumble in.
"PENNY! BEHIND YOU!" I exlaimed.
I lept up, trying to push her out of the way, but it was too late.
One of those things had already sunk their disgusting teeth into her shoulder.
She fell to the ground, as I grabbed the knife and stabbed the walker that attacked Penny.
"P-PENNY!" I cried.
"I.... I'll look around for some bandages! Maybe I can-"
"No.. It's too late." She interrupted.
Tears were streaming down my face, as she hugged me.
"I love you" she said softly...
I wrapped my arms around her, and held her close.
Her hands fell from me, as she closed her eyes.
"No..." I whispered to myself, setting her down.
I wiped my face and got up.
"I'll see you again... I promise..." I mumbled to myself.
The dead were surrounding me, and I was ready to die.
Suddenly, the front door crashed open.
"PENNY! (Y/N)!!" A familiar voice yelled.
"Dad!" I screamed.
I saw him making a pathway through the walkers. Once he killed enough to get to me, he stopped when he saw Penny laying on the ground.
"P-penny?!" He screeched, rushing towards her. He knelt down, and brushed her bangs out of her face.
"My sweet little angel... I'm so sorry..." He mumbled to hismelf.
He never cared about me. He always would give his all to Penny, but never me.
I knew he cared about me slightly, and he would protect me if he had to, but he cared about Penny much more then he did me.
"Ugh! This is all YOUR fault!" I screamed.
"What?!" He yelled back.
"If you had gotten here a few moments earlier, My sister would be alive!".
He stayed silent.
"If it were me laying there, you wouldn't care, would you?!" I yelled.
"It's always about Penny!" I grabbed my lucky pocket knife, clicked it closed, and fought my way through the walkers. If I got bit, so be it.
"(Y/N)! Stop this! I'm not about to lose you too!" I hear my fathers muffled voice yell.
I hate my father.
I hate Phillip.
I hate the govoner...
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"Honey, Wake up!" My mothers voice echoed inside my head.
"Mom..?"  I groaned, rolling out of bed.
I looked up to see nothing. No one. The room was completely empty.
It was day 14 in Alexandria, and I hadn't slept in a bed for who knows how long until we found this place.
I had good friends.
Ron, Mikey, Enid.
They all really liked me, and I really liked them back.
I was sitting in Ron's bedroom with Enid and Mikey, sketching in my sketch book. I was almost done with a drawing of my mother, when Ron walked in with this other guy I had never seen before.
"Guys, this is Carl." Ron stated.
I looked up at Ron and the boy. The boy- er... I mean Carl, was pretty cute.
His brown hair, and Sparkling blue eyes.
What am I thinking? I only just met this guy. How can I think he's cute already?
"Carl, this is Enid, Mikey, And (Y/N)"
"Hey!" Mikey said happily.
"Hi." Enid said simply.
I looked up at him, smiled and said hello as well.
"(Y/N) is from outside too, she just came around 15 days ago."
"Erm... Actually 14 days ago." I said.
"Well exuse me!" Ron said, laughing.
I smiled.
"Oh, umm..." Carl mumbled, as he pulled one of Enid's comic books out.
"Is this yours?" He said sweetly.
"Oh sorry, we didn't know you got that house."
"We mostly just hang out up there and listen to music." Mikey said.
I sort of just stopped listening from then on, and continued sketching in my sketch book.
Once the guys left, Enid asked me if I wanted to go hangout in the woods.
I gladly accepted, missing the smell of the wilderness slightly.
As we climbed up, I felt very powerful being so high up.
~ Later ~
"I missed this...." I mumbled.
"Missed what?" Enid replied.
"This. Being out here." I said softly, leaning up against a tree.
"Its reminds me of my mother." I signed. "My older sister... My friends..." Enid hugged me sympatheticly, and got up.
"We should head back" I nodded.
I slept good that night. My bed was warmer and more welcoming then it normally was. I finally just got to relax, and not have to worry about anything.
Finally, I dozed off, and fell into my dream land.
~ The next Day ~
I woke up, in my warm bed.
I took a shower, got dressed and headed outside.
Rick, Carl's father, and Jesse were talking near the gates.
I saw the way Rick looked at her, passionately.
I sighed, and walked down to the gazebo.
"Hey." Ron said calmly.
He sat next to me, and stared into my eyes.
"Uhmm... What do you think about Carl?" I asked suddenly.
Ron's eyes suddenly became dull, and annoyed.
"He's okay..." He shrugged.
I sighed, and looked over at the walls.
"You're safe here, (Y/N). You're safe." He whispered into my ear.
"I know..." I whispered back.
Before I knew it, Ron's lips were pressed against mine.
"Hmph?!" I struggled.
I liked Ron, but not in that way.
He was more like a brother to me then a lover.
I pushed him away from me, and I could see how dead his heart became.
"N-no..." I mumbled.
"I'm sorry... I never should of fell in love." He said softly.
"Fall in love? I have only been here-"
I said, as Ron stormed off.
"Ron! Wait!" I said, reaching my hand out.
He was gone in almost a second.
"Wait..." I whispered to myself, lowering my hand.
A tear ran down my cheek, as I relaized I had just broken the heart of yet another being. First Penny, then Dad, and now him. I closed my eyes shut, and started running towards my temporary house.
CRASH!
Soon, I was on the cold, hard ground.
"Ow.." I groaned, rubbing the back of my head.
"I'm really sorry!" I heard a familiar voice say.
I looked up to see Carl, holding out his hand.
He was pushing a baby carriage, which made me curious.
I took his hand, and he pulled me up. I fluffed my clothing off, and looked over at the carriage.
"Her name is Judith." He said.
I looked into the carriage, to see blonde baby.
"Wow..." I mumbled, thinking out loud.
"I never thought..." I trailed off.
I looked up at Carl, and smiled brightly.
"Her mother must be beautiful" I said.
Carl looked at the ground, sorrowfuly.
"I-I'm sorry..." I choked out.
"No, your fine. You didn't know" He replied, giving me a crooked smile.
As I looked back down into the carriage, my hair fell, landing onto baby judiths little face. She giggled, and started messing with my hair.
I smiled, at the delecat touch of her little hands.
"Looks like she really enjoys you and your hair!" Carl said happily.
I smiled, and felt butterflys in my stomach.
Ugh. I can't fall in love... It has already happened to me once.
I get attached to someone, then they die.
It's bad enough I am really close with Enid, Ron, and Mikey already...
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