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I don't know how I'm supposed to feel upset over the potential death of the woman that verbally abused me for sixteen years of my life.

I get that you love her but I do not. I hate her. I'm not upset that she's close to death. I feel like a weight is going to be lifted off my shoulders. I don't want to wish death on anyone but I will be so much happier.

I still remember all the "obese" "fat" "overweight" "lose weight" "join weight watchers" comments from the time I was four years old and throughout my middle school and preteen years. Only last year was I finally able to find inner peace with my body and m mind. It took twelve years.

I shouldn't be forced to feel sad when I'm not. The biggest negative factor in my life will be gone and I will find peace. I'm feel no regret for admitting this and it just makes me upset that we didn't have a good relationship. You were the adult and you pushed me away. I shouldn't have to respect someone that would hate me if it weren't for the fact that I was her son's daughter.

-L