Escaping The Alpha

Chapter Eleven: Don't Judge a Book by its Cover

 

Chapter Eleven: Don't Judge a Book by its Cover

"We need to talk" 

David looked serious. I knew he was going to come sooner or later, I just failed to notice that It would be sooner than I expected. As I was taking a moment on the balcony my wolf wouldn't stop, she felt excited that somehow her mate was close by. I didn't smell his scent so she was just imagining things, I dont know. Am I just that oblivious to things? 

I met his eyes and I saw longing, hope, confusion swirl in his eyes and I felt guilty? Yes, I inflicted the pain on both of us, but isn't the pain worth it? Don't you become stronger when pain is inflicted on you or that just for humans? Right now I wished that I was so I could learn to move on, be a better person, and well have some girl time. Yea, THAT'S what I need girl time. With Victoria. 

Both of us kept in silence just looking at one another until I grabbed his hand. Immediately the pain I was feeling early vanished in just seconds once I held his hand. I intwined our hands and I felt sparks eminate from my action. Okay, so maybe I was selfish. I was pushing him away, rejecting him and when I was in pain and I see him around I guess I just want my pain to go away. So I go to him. I feel like I'm the bad guy here. 

Shock written in his expression as I held his hand tighter. He hesitated for a bit but applied the same of pressure as I was. He moved from my side and walked over to my bed our hands still linked together. He sat on edge of my bed while I took a seat besides him. 

"David I-"

He put his free hand up to stop me from talking and started talking.

"Why?" 

I knew what he was referring to and I looked down to my lap. How could I tell him everything? Would he understand? What if he thinks I'm to blame? I can't tell him everything, not just yet. 

"I-I needed time and space from you. And me being with you would only distract me from what I'm trying to acomplish." 

He winced at the mension of him being a distaction but he kept calm and instead he closed his eyes and started questioning me. 

"You need time? Space!?" his tone was slowly rising and anger filled in his words. I felt daisy stir inside of me, she felt the need to scurry away from him and take back my words but I couldn't. It was already said. 

"I-I'm not as I once was. I'm just lost and confused about my actions." 

I didn't have to keep that a secret because it was true. I felt the logical side of me say its what is best, but then my animalistic side was dying to be close to her mate, to have him mark us, and make him ours. The more Daisy was away from her mate the more she felt weak and bitter towards me. Its a struggle. 

"What do you mean Gabriela?" 

Tell him. 

I-I can't. 

You will feel better if you tell our mate over your past, he can help you. He will protect us from the harm and can take the pain away if you let him in. 

Daisy insisted and begged me to tell him everything. But I wasn't ready no, not now. 

I felt tears form in my eyes and I couldn't stop them. My past was terrible and it haunted me every minute of my now present life. I live in fear and disbelief that someone can actually care for me if they arent Victoria or Danny. No matter what I said those were the only people I can truely COUNT on. Katherine is another thing....she's more like growing on me. Oh and Stephen is kind of con- WAIT sorry back to what I was saying.