Me, Myself, and I

Idk What to Do Guys

So in 7th grade I told this guy that I liked him, but it didn't end too well. He said 'okay'.

Steve, as you may know him. We have sort of getting along but I have no idea how he feels about me but I just want to know.

I don't care if he likes me or not, I just need to know what comes to mind when he hears my name, or what.

I have no problem with him not liking me, it's just that, I don't know, if he likes me or not. That is what kills me.

Idk if I should talk to him about it, or just live with the fact that I will never know.

Idk if I can live with the fact that I don't know.

I would rather be friends with him, than have it be really awkward and, weird.

I don't want him to think of me as 'that girl who likes me' I want him to think of me as Ellen. 'The girl I'm friends with.' or even 'that girl in my English class who is nice'.

I don't want him to feel awkward if he hears my name. I don't want him to feel like he has to tolerate me, because I liked him.

But, I think he does, and I don't like that.

I wish he could just, know, how I feel with out it being awkward.

Tell me what you think I should do, or not do because honestly I have no idea.