I Can't Hurt You Anymore [My Chemical Romance]

Part 1: I Guess This Is Hello? [20th Sept.1997]

September 20th 1997

Dear newly found Diary,

So I guess this is 'Hello'? I think we should start off with formal introduction. It seems fitting seeing that if I keep this up you’ll end up knowing a lot about me. Probably more than I know myself.

I’m Gerard way. I’m 20 years old with long black hair and pale skin. I’m the elder sibling and I have a younger brother called Mikey who is 17. Actually he’s just 17 his birthday was a few weeks ago.

I’m currently just starting my second year at the New York Visual Art College as I want to become a comic artist, or something similar. I live at home with Mikey and my parents. Because we live in Belleville NJ it’s only a commute train ride into NYC to go to the college.

I’ve never felt like I’ve fitted in. I haven’t really been a big part of anything. At school I kept myself to myself and I was mostly just ignored and left alone. I had a few friends but I’ve pretty much lost contact with them now. Thank God I graduated in May of 1995. I don't think I could have spent any longer there. 

Now I'm in college I had hoped for a new beginning and change from High School. That didn't really happen. I'm still a bit out-casted. Apart from I'm not the 'weird art dude' anymore because it's Art College. 

So I might as well tell you the reason I wanted to write a Diary. It doesn’t seem like a very grown-up or manly thing to do. Neither is talking to a book, but I guess I’ve just done both. Major man points there Gerard.

But seriously I’ve had problems for a while with alcohol and Mikey said that writing down my feelings would help get over it. He’s so good with shit like that. I swear he should be a Therapist when he graduates. He got me this leather bound book a while back for my 20th Birthday, so I’m putting it to good use.

I’m not an alcoholic, it’s not that bad, but I still think writing down my feelings will help. A diary is a good place to do that. I’m going to keep doing this as much as possible but my life is pretty dull. However I can write about any thing I want because no one ever needs see it.

So after that long, and I have to admit, rather dull introduction it’s time to name you. Before you say anything….

Yes I know it is sad to name a diary, I mean it’s just some paper bound and held together in a pretty cover after all. But I feel if you have a name, I can pour much more into these pages, and pretend that I’m talking to a real person.

I’ve already decided what your name is. ‘Dee’ - It’s short for ‘Diary’ and long for ‘D’ and to top it all off it rhymes with my nickname, Gee.

So after all that commotion I’ve decided not to write about today. It wasn’t very exciting and it’s half 1 in the morning, a good time for me to be getting off to sleep because I need to be in College for 9 tomorrow.

I promise I’ll write soon, unless I’m feeling too lazy, which is quite likely.

XO Gee

PS: I just read through what I just wrote. I sound so fucking gay. Damned the stupid gay rumours, which aren’t true by the way. I really don’t understand, do I look gay to you? 

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Thanks for reading the first part. I promise the story line will pick up a little as we move through Gerard's life more.

I just wanted to say a few things: 

1) This is dedicated to xxsophiexx95 because she has written about 6 or 7 of my favourite MCR stories. She deserves more credit than she gets! 2) I hope you liked this chapter. Feel free to comment, 3) Remember this won't be accurate. I'mma change his life ever so slightly here and there. I GOT THE POWER!!!  

4) Thanks to everyone who has fanned, and commented or voted for any of my stories it means so much :D 

-Y