=Megan=
As I paddle my bike, I just remembered that I opened something that I don't tell anyone. Yes I didn't told specifically what it is but now, one man knows it. Luke.
My mom lately being angry to me so much that one wrong move she would yell at me. Even it's not my fault she will be angry, even if she sees me with my phone. I got only one solution, locked my room, cry and absorb the hurtful words my mom is saying.
Some people would hurt themselves, but whenever I try I end up with nothing, because me, myself, don't want to hurt myself, let others hurt me, but let me hurt myself mentally.
At the age of 12, I already is depressed and drowned by anxiety. It was because of problems that shouldn't be problems. I believe that every person have three reasons why they are crying, one is they are sad, second they are angry, and lastly, when they are happy.
That third reason, never happened to me. I don't know, even tho my dad came home from abroad, I don't cry, when he left, I don't cry too. Maybe I'm tired. Tired of crying with just mixed of sad and anger. I don't usually cry but one thing that makes me cry alot and make my eyes hurt, is that, I'm being yelled by the thing I didn't do, which is my mom usually do to me these days.
"Mom?" I said while opening the door, but no one welcomes me. I continue to walk till I reached the refrigerator. I found a sticky note saying: "I'll be home around 8-10. My co-worker asked if we could shift. And I agreed. There are foods in the ref. be sure to drink plenty of water. And I'm sorry if I'll not be around when you are probably awake. -Momxx
"Ohhh well. Alone. Sorry. Alone again." I said holding the sticky note and my eyes start to tear up. Tomorrow I'll not be around at school and the next day. Mom knows that I'll go to grandma for that two days but I don't really tell my reason.
As I start to walk again, I heard our doorbell so I opened the door.
"Hey" Luke said. "Did you just cry? Why babe? Let me know your problems, I know it will help." He added. I don't know why he go here or something. Good that I'm not alone.
As I absorb his words, I know that is the true Luke. I closed my eyes and didn't notice that tears are coming down my pinkish-red cheeks.
Without any word he cupped my cheeks and swept it off away with his hand. With that simple gesture I felt Luke pull me into a hug.
I pulled away to say come in. He nod and followed me.
"I'll just change my clothes. Stay here." I said as he sit down the sofa, I headed to my room.
=Luke=
I don't know what I'm actually doing. It just.... I felt something bad when she said "personal problems"
I stood up of their sofa to look around their household. I saw pictures of them happily.
"What a small lil bean" I said when I saw Megan's picture. She was covered in mud and probably in the playground but still keep on smiling. Then I noticed myself, I'm smiling while staring at her picture.
"I miss those times." She said and she sitted at the sofa she's in with her pyjamas and losse plain gray v-neck t-shirt.
I headed to the sofa, I sitted beide her.
"What comes to your mind and you think to follow? Or something, to be here?" She aked when she stared at the vase and to mine.
"I-I don't know. It just- I just felt bad when you say you got a personal problem that will lead you to be absent." I explained looking at her eyes.
"Why Ashton, and the others didn't know about this?" I asked and she looked at me too. A few gap left between my face and her's so she go back and look at the table.
"I don't want actually to tell anyone. It just, I don't know why did I told you that. And in my surprise you came." She said. "Did Mrs. Hemmings" -"call her Mom"- "ok Mom, know your here?" She continued.
"Actually, yes. But she didn't know why. And by the way why did you accept mom's offer to date -umm -date- date me?" When it comes to date me I lowered my voice and scratch the back of my neck.
"Luke... I don't know... Maybe I want you to tell the world who you really are. Luke I am seriously surprised when you came here because you feel bad of what I said, that's not the Luke I expected, but in my surprise, you came. You care." She said as she looked to me. "Luke, please. On saturday, please, let me know who you really are. I also have care to someone who have care for me." She added as I looked at her. Now in our closeness, our noses are touching together and she looked to my eyes, that I can't barely read.
She looked away as I covered my cheeks. It is heating up.
"Hey Megan. So can you tell me your problem. I really think it would help." I said looking to her as she let out a sigh.
"Luke..." she said and then, she placed her head at my shoulder. "It's not that much of a problem. Maybe when I'll tell you that, you will let go of our friendship. Maybe you'll think I'm crazy. Ma-" I cut her out.
"No, let me know. I promise I'll not judge." I said as I cross my heart.
She smiled and I smiled also. A silence filled the place but she spoke.
"Lately, mom get really angry to me. She yells at me even tho I didn't do something bad. She says bad word that really hurt my feelings. One wrong move, she'll be angry, I got to the point that I try to hurt myself but I can't. And I think whenever she sees me crying she didn't care. She'll continue to say harsh words, the one that hurt me the most is, she said, I'm a load for her shoulders." She said as I hug her instead of her leaning to ny shoulder.
"Megan sorry." I said. She pushed me away but she didn't let go of the hug. It was, we are lying and she's in the top of me crying. I rub her back making circles or shapes to calm her down. I hold her hair and swiping it.
"I'm sorry Luke. I let you know."she said, continuing to hug me tight. But I hug her tighter.
"Shhhh. Just cry. I'm here, I promise to won't judge so I won't." I said continue to comfort her.
She cried and cried until I notice that she's already sleeping.
Wow, there's an angel sleeping over me..... WHAT LUKE? She's your bestfriend! Stfu Luke!
"Babe, let me sing you a song." I said. I continue to comfort you and look to her face.
When I wake up to your footsteps, as you get out up the bed, you made a song that sound so simple, but it dances in head.
A melody so perfect, that it gets through the day, and the thought of us forever, is the one that will never go away.
All I need to know is where to stop. Take my hand and show me forever so, never will I ever let you go.
"Babe sleep well." I said, looking at her, I roam my eyes around to find a clock. It's just 5:48 pm. I'll let you sleep till 6:00 pm Megan...
