{lauren}
november 18th 2015
6:34 am
i watched as the warm water ran down the bathtub. something about watching my sins drain away was so relieving.
i was interrupted by a loud banging sound on the door.
"get out of the fucking bathroom!" my so called dad yelled at me.
"yes sir," i turned off the water and dried myself with the towel that i left on the counter.
i dressed in black leggings with a white long sleeve top.
i ran downstairs and slipped on my old pair of black converse.
"now get out of this god damn house! you piece of shit" i nodded my head slowly and walked out the door.
i was eventually planing to run away and never see him again, yea maybe im only 17, but i cant be trapped there forever.
i turned the other way from school , i wasn't going to that 2nd hell whole.
instead i thought i would walk to the cemetery that was only a couple of miles away.
as i walked by people, i always got weird looks. its like as if they could tell i had my inner demons.
i arrived at the cemetery and walked to the 24th row and 2nd to last tomb on the right.
i kneeled down so i could face the words that were on the tomb.
"im sorry" i cried out knowing how much pain i caused.
"im such a fuck up, im so sorry. i miss you more than ever. i know you hate me and i understand why. i didn't mean to do what i did, it just happened." i stopped and put my hand over my mouth to prevent me from crying.
that didn't work one bit. i found myself weeping out bitter tears . i couldn't contain my emotion after 2 years.
" i hope in another life you will forgive me , i love you always, goodbye." i whipped the tears from my face.
i read the tomb once more before i would have to leave.
'in loving memory of anastasia giraldo,whom we will remember for her bravery'
walking out i bumped into what i thought was a tree but with my luck it had to be him.
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i hope you enjoyed this first chapter! it was short, sorry 😁
bye babes 💕
