The Change Of Plans

Lost Memories

I haven't had good experiences with people throughout my entire life. A couple of years ago my parents were also having a hard time. They would argue every night, and get frustrated. It scared me, especially when they would begin slamming doors and saying inappropriate things. I thought they would get a divorce; however, they are still together and doing quite well till this day. Unfortunately, I don't have the joy of having good memories when I think of my elementary school years. I was constantly picked on, but I always stood up for myself. I can recall my entire 5th grade class picking on me; however, it was mainly verbally, and I could take it. I was strong, and I never cried or got hurt by words. Thinking back on it, everyday was another battle. Though there were times that I wanted to crawl into a hole and cry my eyes out. I wish I could look back at that time and have good memories. Even my two best friends, Greg and Sam, had betrayed me. My best friend, Sam had shoved me to the ground and ran off randomly one day. While the other, Greg had abandoned me as soon as the bullying began when I needed a friend the most. I never knew why, and for the longest time I found myself question what made him do that. I thought we were best friends. Awhile later, when I changed schools I saw him at Subway. I called out to him, and he turned my way. I thought I would finally be able to ask him why he abandoned me and let them bully me, by his friends, but as soon as our eyes met he turned and walked the opposite direction. I never saw him after that day. After that I gave up on the idea of "best friends". After that, I learned two lessions. One lesson, is "best friends" dont exist. And the other, I learned was that people could not be trusted or counted on. In some way they would eventually let you down. Thus, my life began where I would began to build my walls, and lock out everyone.